I got home and ran up to my bedroom just in time for me to burst into tears. How could this day get any worse? I hated this world and everyone in it. I wanna just shut the world out and die to be honest.
I grabbed my blade that was hidden inside my drawer and pulled up my sleeve, revealing the many scars I already have. I was ready to make new ones. I slid the cold piece of medal across my skin. Then the blood came down. It felt so good to cut.
The night soon turned into bloody hell for me as well. I cringed as I heard my mother and stepfather fighting again. Why can't they just break up already? Everything would be so much easier. I sat alone in my room trying to occupy myself so I wouldn't hear any of it. I got my phone out and right before put my headphones in the yelling stopped and I heard the back door slam. I think they're finally gone. Little Things by One Direction started playing. I loved this song so very much. It made me forget about all the bad things in my life.
I think I'm gonna write to Niall again.
Dear Niall,
I'm home alone again. I cut right when I got home today. I know it's bad to do it but how can something so bad feel so good? I also know that you wouldn't want me to do that and I'm sorry. But it's like a sweet escape for me. Listening to Little Things too. Your voice always makes me feel better. You and the boys are the only positive thing in my life right now. I just hope overall my life will get better.
You'll probably never see this letter.
Love,
Diana. xx.
After I put the letter into an envelope I wrote Modest Management's address then went outside and put it in the mailbox.
My mind knows that Niall won't ever see my letters but my heart has hopes.
-Author's note-
So the first chapter probably wasn't great but I promise it'll get better! Thank you if you read. It really means a lot to me. Second chapter will be up tomorrow. It's gonna be longer then this one. I'll try to update everyday depending on how many reads I get.
-MarleeStyles1 xoxo
