Shadows

Dangerous Love

I don't necessarily believe in love for myself. I read about it, I hear about it, and I believe that those people are, or think they are, in love. I don't find myself in that. Love makes people act as a deviated version of their own being. I have never experienced that. It was not until recently people saw me as a love sick puppy.

It's actually kind of nice. Having someone to like. It's not what I would have expected. But no one would have guessed how it started.

I haven't really had an actual 'crush' before. No one in my grade strikes that one particular feature that makes me crazy. When people would ask me who I liked I would say that I don't have a crush, but if I had to date anyone in our grade it would be this guy. It was always that, and just that. Until he told all of my friends that the girl he likes was me.

I've had a few people have a crush, or even asked me out in the past. I barely knew any of them. I actually know him. I don't exactly know what it is about this guy, but I think it's because I can actually see myself with him. I have never been able to actually see myself with anyone before. This just makes it possible.

I started talking to him more and it just seemed more possible. It made me feel special when his best friend tells me that he acts different around me. She would tell me that he didn't get mad as easily when he was around me. Another would say that I'm flirting with him. I didn't understand that I was, at first. It was just that easily to get sucked into the ride.

Throughout all of that, there are still some major parts that I don't understand. How can people be dating for a week and then say "I love you."? How can you possible know if you are in love yet? It is something that the most you can do is guess. You can think that you are in love for so long, but trust is lost as easily as dropping a pen. You love someone so much and then they do something wrong. You can be so mad at someone, but yet love them. You can be arguing everyday, but you still think your in love. People think they can cheat love. Love cannot be bought or swayed. You have to find it. It is one of the hardest searches. People find themselves bending head over knees to find love. People die in the name of love. So with such a dangerous thing, how can people want to find it so badly?