I remember when you wanted me to be your knight in shining armor
To ride in and battle your demons away because you were so tired of fighting
The exhaustion of existing was getting to you but my love could only do so much
And while your demons were never contagious it would be a lie to say I never had my own
I so badly wanted to be who you needed me to be
But all I could do was offer my love
I fought off your demons for a day or two
Only to have them come back with reinforcements
Towards the end of our relationship the exhaustion that weighed you down turned my bones into lead
My demons had become stronger while I was fending off yours
And when they both attacked you and I both knew I didn't stand a chance
So you ended it, and I tried so hard not to be bitter
But your name still leaves a sour taste in my mouth
I was willing to give it all for you, to put every ounce of myself into what we had
But you had a change of heart and with no warning or second chances you left
So what was I to do?
Except bury myself in distractions in their various shapes and forms
You said you wanted to be friends
I wish I had asked you how you turned off your love for me
Lord knows I wanted to do the same
I cut you out of my life as fast as I could
I ended up moving back to the city which seemed just a little lonelier knowing you wouldn't be there for me
I'm not bitter anymore and while I don't regret it, I am glad we're through
I just wish you weren't apart of my 3am musings anymore, I'm tired of your memory
