How could I think of the relationships in my life without having you come to mind?
With your constant shadow and inquiries, rarely leaving my side
I've talked about you to friends, about our ups and downs
How you like to slither in my bed at night and wrap me up in your cold embrace
Or even with your surprise visits while the sun rides high, taking the life from me to keep you going
We've even gone to counseling together, me trying to convince you to leave and you determined to stay
2 years of it just to come to the conclusion that I have to learn to live with you
That while your voice may quiet down it'll never leave
I can no longer count how many times I've been told to see the beauty in you
From the unexpected sobs that shake me to my core
To the intrusive thoughts of throwing myself in front of oncoming trains
I want to learn to live with you
I want to learn to see that without knowing you so intimately I couldn't know joy
Though I know I will never love you
I wish I could appreciate you
To look into your ocean blue eyes and to know you've made me stronger
Right now I can't look into your eyes without drowning
So Sadness, what more is there to say?
I'll try to live with you even when you break my heart
Or when you turn my bones to lead so I can't get out of bed
I'll reach out and take your hand and we'll walk this road together
And who knows
Maybe one day I'll love you
