Hidden Love

Drama

"Joey you can't be serious? You have a crush to all of the guys here?" My best friend Yuki asked, as both of us make our way to the school canteen.

"I'm serious Yu... But it's not all of the guys anyway. Just Ivan, Ben, Paul, Fred, Nico, Ken, John, Aldrin, Jc..." I was cut by her.

"You can't be crushing on them all at the same time. I'm asking the one that stands out of all them."

"If the one that stands out means that the one that I hate, then it's Lessy..." I cringed my nose at his name, yea his.

He's a guy, I only call him Lessy just to pissed him.

I despise him ever since like forever, I really don't know why though.

I just don't like seeing him, because whenever I do I felt so much pain in my heart.

That is another thing that I don't know why.

"Why do you hate Lester so much? Jo the guy did nothing to you, you know? It's been like 6 years, you haven't been able to move on with your hatred towards him. He was always trying to get close to you, reaching you out. Wanting to be friends with you, that poor guy."

I heave a sigh, yea I know I shouldn't be rude with him.

But hey! What should I do?

Even myself don't know why I always do...

I'm just as confuse as them.

"Yea yea! We've been through about this for almost 6 years... And you know even myself don't know why I don't like him." Yuki rolled her eyes at me.

"I sometimes think that you don't really hate the guy, like your trying to show. Sometimes I wonder if you like him and you just don't know how to show it so you prefer to show the guy that you hate him." I cringed my nose at her, wanting to tell her she was so wrong.

But nothing came out my mouth as I try to open them.

That makes me wonder also. I've been trying to justify my action towards him, but every time I try to, I really can't think of a valid reason to hate him this much. I suddenly felt sorry for Lessy.

"You know there's a saying that fits the two of you, There's always a thin line between Love and Hate."

I involuntary gulp, was it true?

I stop death track when I saw him opposite our way, walking with a black haired girl beside him, he's hands was drape on her shoulder. They were laughing at something he said.

My hands balled into fist at the sight of them.

Why is it I feel like I'm having a hard time to breathe right now?

Why is it I feel like there were million of needle stabbing me inside my chest?

Why is it I feel like I wanted to yank the girls hair and pull him away from her?

My vision was focus on them not even seeing anyone, just them.

Then slowly everything become so blurry.

"OH MY GOSH JOEY! What's wrong?" Yuki exclaim as she follow where my eyes was fixed, I faintly hear her gasp as he saw the two.

Not wanting to be questioned I turn my heel and run as fast as I can, not minding where I should go or who I bump unto, as long as I can get away from that scene.

"JOEY!!!" I heard Yuki shout my name but I don't want to be there anymore.

What is this I'm feeling?

I really can't explain it, whenever I'm near him I feel like I'm someone else.

I've been trying to hide it, trying not to show it.

But every time I do, I always fail.

I feel like I gone crazy...

How could this happening?

After running like there's no tomorrow, I collapse to the ground. I'm totally exhausted, I close my eyes as I pant.

Running away like that was not a good idea. I cover my face with my hands, I yank it immediately when I felt it was wet.

That's when realization hit me, Am I crying...?

Crying for what?

'Of what you saw..!' I heard a voice inside my head answered me.

That can't be...

What I saw was like a repeat of my daily encounter with him and his girls. It's not like I'm jealous or something...

'Yes you are...' There goes the voice again. I'm turning to a psychotic...I'm hearing things inside my head...

I slowly open my eyes and look around me... I'm at an open field behind the school main building... I sure run that far huh...

I sat up while whipping my tears away, soon enough Yuki will find me here and then there comes throwing question at me, and i didn't know what I'm gonna answer her.

Oh..! I really hate drama.