Hidden Love

Series

I slowly walk my way to my next class.

I spend my lunch break on school back field, yes I had avoid drama for now.

Because Yuki didn't manage to find me so I bet I have to deal with her a little later soon.

I was hoping to see her tomorrow, I still have to think of a good excuse for my little drama just an hour ago.

At hating drama I sure know how to make a good one, though I didn't know how? Or why? I'm still confused.

'Just admit it...' The voice in my head appears again.

"Admit what?" I asked her.

'You hate seeing him with another girl...' She answered.

"No, am not... How's that even possible? I mean... I don't even care about him, right?"

'You do... Because you like him...' She offered.

"Of course not. I don't like him, in fact I hated him. Despise him since I was 12... There's no way I would like him." I scoff.

'Yea Joey... Keep telling that yourself. But we both know you have a special place there in your heart for him. You can keep denying it to everyone, but you can't deny it to yourself.' I shook my head.

It's official, I'm insane.

Here I am standing in a crowded hallway, arguing with the voice in my head. She's saying I like Lessy?

Heck!!!

Was that supposed to mean?

Is it possible to have an argument with your own head?

I took a deep breath, trying to calm myself.

That's when I saw him,

Lessy...

He was pushing pass the crowd towards me?

Great!!! There's no way I should let him come near me... Not when I just had my head tells me I had a thing for him.

Not that I really do, right? But hey! How did my head come up with that thought? Is it just a thought? Or is it what I'm feeling?

I snap out of my thought when I saw him just a foot away from me.

I turn my heel and start to push all the people on my way.

I have to get away from him, didn't even try to look behind my back I just kept running and running...

Until I felt two strong arms grab me by the waist and lift me. Great!!! He got me, why is it he has to be that fast?

"Think you can get away from me again?" He whispered on my ears making me shiver.

I try to wriggling from his hold.

"Let me go! Lessy I swear if you didn't let me go this instant I'll do something you won't like..." I threaten which only made him laugh.

"Doubt it Joe. You can't even get out of my hold, yet your threatening me?" He keeps on whispering on my ear so I pulled away making a bit distance from his face.

"I hate you Lessy! What do you want now?" I hissed trying hard to let myself out of his hold, but of course him being man. He held me tighter, he's so strong.

"I missed you calling me that pet name you gave me. You've been avoiding me for almost a week and then just an hour ago you runaway when you saw me. I'm a bit hurt of your action you know." He softly whisper leaning closer to me. His husky voice making my knees weak, he sounded so sexy.

'Did I just called him sexy?' I asked myself when I realize what I just said.

'Yes you did... Don't try to deny it. It's the truth anyway...'

'Your here again. Aren't you going to leave me alone? I feel like I'm losing my mind... Talking , worse arguing with myself?'

'I can't do that... We're one... And I think you should stop arguing with me, yourself. Just give in, you know you want this too. You know you want him too.'

I shook my head, I don't know which part of me did actually thought about it. But I don't care, it's not true so why bothered?

"You should be used to it now, it's been like 6 years now. We never been friend and never will, so stop acting like we used to be in good terms." I tried to sound tough.

"I never want to be your friend." He whisper so so softly, taking me by surprise.

"Yea! It doesn't seem like it..." I blurted.

"I wanted more than it..." He said cutting me off. My eyes widens, palms start to sweat, heart start to beat faster.

"I can't take this anymore Joey..." I closed my eyes as I heard him say my name.

This was the very first time he say my name and I don't know why does it affects me so much.

"Yo-Your insane Le-Les... Yo-you think I'll fall for that? I know you really don't like me, you hate me like the way I hate you..."

"I never hate you! I wanted to become your friend, I always tried to get close to you but your always guarded. I don't know what I did to you for you to hate me like this." He said cutting me off from my rant. Making me stop squirming in his hold.

"I don't believe you... Why would you want to be my friend?" I asked rather softly this time, still surprise to hear him say something like that.

"Why not? I don't see a reason for me not to want you as my friend." He answered slowly releasing his hands around me and turned me to faced him.

"Give me a chance Joey. I'll prove to you that I seriously wanted to get close to you."

"No! Never..! Your just playing! I won't let you win, so please stop all of this." I yelled, getting fed up by this conversation. I'm not gonna believe this, never with him. Not with Les...

He's hold loosen on me, waving his hands making gestures showing his frustration. But I slowly back up getting ready for my exit.

"I'm not playing Joey! I'm serious... Is it really hard for you to believe that I just really want to be close to you? Just a chance Joe, all I'm asking is a chance. It won't harm you just to try..."

He tried to come towards me again but I move back, taking a bigger step backwards.

"No!... Can't you just take the hint? Just leave me alone! It's quite clear that I really don't want you near me! So please.. Just please! Stop bugging me! Go to someone who cares... BECAUSE I DON'T!" With that last outburst I turn my heels and run as if my life defends on it.

Yea, this is just too much for not liking drama x2...

Too much for just a day and its starting to overwhelm me.

I head outside my UNI's, I'll just skip the rest of my subject.

I really can't take another second here knowing that there's a high possibility that ill start another series of dramas that I unconsciously started.