Dear Diary

October 17

Dear Diary,

It's like 9 pm and I'm crying my eyes out. Today was Angela's birthday. Yup, just from that title you can tell that something bad happened. It was a horrendous day. Angela paraded around so happy that she was finally turning fourteen. <even though everyone else was already fourteen going on fifteen> Her little minions followed her wherever she went. She believed that sense it was her birthday, her and her minions could do whatever they want, say whatever they want, and of course bully whoever they want. Guess who was lucky enough to just be in the same bathroom, at the same time with all five of her minions. I still remember like half of the conversation.

Angela: Guess what the trash man brought in girls?

Me: Oh Angie, it's your birthday! You should really stop describing yourself like that.

Can't blame me, I was being nice to her! I was telling her to stop calling herself trash and a whore. If you are being dropped off by trash men that aren't your friend, or a relative, then we all know what you were doing to that trash man... if you know what I mean.

Anyway, back on topic! So, I was being nice and telling her to stop degrading herself, and she slapped me. Like, they all got mad at my honest statement. Two of her minions grabbed my arms (Selena and Taylor. They use to be my friends but they joined the minion side.) They grabbed my arms and lifted me up. I was being dragged over to the dirtiest stall in the bathroom. I called out to my former friends. I was almost begging them to put me down.

Two more grabbed my legs while another video recorded them. The toilet was absolutely disgusting. It looked like it hadn't been cleaned in years. It had an out of order sign on the outside, the water was brown, and around the edges there was dries crap all over it. I swear there was a pee stain and freaking blood lurking in the water. It made me nauseous just looking at it.

 One. Two. Three.

They dunked my head into the shit- filled water and flushed. I was thrashing around in all of their tight grips and they all just laughed at me! One day... They took me out of the water and I was panting. NONE of that water was inserting my mouth OH NO!  They dunked me in again and again, leaving me in there for about 10 seconds, then twenty then thirty then about a minute. Flushing over and over again. I was pretty sure I was going to die from all of those germs, or from drowning. They dropped me to the ground and I started throwing up, nearly passing out from the nastiness and lack of oxygen.

 My hair was fizzy and had crap in it, it was pretty long (my hair, I mean) so everything was dripping on my clothes. I never hated them more. I was throwing up for like ten minutes. Lunch was almost over and I'm pretty sure that Keenan and Eve were wondering where I was. There was a big puddle of my vomit in the middle of the floor and me just leaning over it while clutching my stomach. Of course, when Angela kicked me I fell into that disgusting puddle and- you know what? I'll spare you the details.

 I crawled out of the bathroom with frizzy hair and vomit, brown water covered body. Angela and her minions were no where to be seen.

 Yeah, eventually Eve saw me just laying there and let me borrow some of her clothes and a brush and scrunchie. I smelled like poo and vomit though, so when Aaron walked up to me, he immediately walked back to avoid the smell. Everyone stayed like ten feet away from me.

 When I got home, my mom was pissed when she saw the poop girl and my frizzy hair. I tried to tell her everything that happened, but every adult knows Angela as the shy, harmless girl.Adults are so stupid. 

 Anyways, surprisingly, that isn't the reason I'm crying.

All over instagram, and vine, and youtube, and facebook are the links to the video they took. Twitter has it to. It's just me screaming and being dunked into a toilet to an auto tuned song then me throwing up afterwards. Over and over again. Someone even caught me crawling out of the bathroom. There's like a billion- ok maybe 100- hits on the video and pretty mean comments. I caught a handful of comments that were like "How could you do that to someone?" and "That's sick." and some thought I was a masochist and let them do this for pity and attention.

 People are stupid, but when I saw the description under it, I knew why they thought that.

Weirdo manipulative bully Courtney Lawson threatened me and my friends to do this to her. Then threatened that she would kill herself is I didn't post it. Please don't think that me and my friends like to do this for fun. ;(

See! Now I'm that bad guy. Thank God for Aaron and Keenan and Eve. They sent me texts about the videos. I'm so depressed. I showered and washed my hair, then showered again. I put on my favorite lavender soap and lotion, and shampoo. The smell is still there.

-Courtney

P.S on the side is just me taking a photo with my dumb hair being frizzy.