Prematurely Adults

Chapter one

We all know what a purity ring represents. And I am currently staring at the silver one sitting on my finger. The reflection of the watery sun coming through my window makes the ring shine brighter. And to me it feels as if though it is conveying some unspoken message. I have been wearing it for the past six months. And I have to admit it's starting to mock me. See I have a boyfriend and he truly loves me. I know this because no guy would ever go without sex for over a year and a half. Ryan Kavanaugh Sweet Valley high's popular golden boy had sex before we ever started dating. With multiple partners. And I believe once you have opened that door and got a taste there is no going back. He has the same ring and wears it with pride. At least I think so when in my presence.

But I have noticed a change in his behavior as of late. You know how a drug addict gets when they go in withdrawals. Ryan is the same but his are abstinence of sex. And he has been taking his frustrations and aggressions out on the field amongst his teammates. I feel sorry for them. He sometimes gets snappy with me too. I don't think kissing, touching and oral are enough anymore. He wants inside me bad and I am reluctant to give it up. I once told him to screw some random chick and that I won't mind. I don't know if I was joking or actually meant it at the time. But he was furious. I had to hear how selfish I was. And that our relationship didn't matter to me. If it did, then I never would have encourage him to go out and get laid. I admitted that it was a bad joke on my part and that I shouldve never made such a comment.

He didn't fully accepted my apology. He also made it clear that if that was an attempt to make him agree with the stupid joke I made. So I could go and screw random dudes. Then I have misjudge him as it will never happen. He promised me that he will rather kill a guy if a hand was laid on my body. And he was serious at the time. Why would I wanna go out and have sex with a stranger? When I have him? If I am going to spread my legs it would be for him and only him. Well, this is our story.

Ryan is possessive, obsessed and overly protective of me. He treats me like fine China. I have no other way to describe it. Geez the guy will kick a stone if I had to hurt my toe on it. Charge a dog if it were to growl at me. You get where I am going with this? He can be sweet, loving, attentive and overtly affectionate in public. Especially when there are guys around us. Did I mentioned that my boyfriend is the star athlete at our school? He is captain of the soccer team. He is really good on the field. And wants to play for our country and the best club in our city. The Knights soccer club. Every girl wants to date him and all the guys wants to be him. They even started trending his short neat Mohawk hair.

And there was a time most of the student population attended New Life christain church. It is where Ryan goes or went. He didn't go there in a long time. His father is the pastor of the churcg and most of Sweet Valley's residents goes there. Ninety nine percent of the congregation are millionaires. The one percent are the people who sits in the back of the church and does the cleaning of the building and maintaining the grounds outside. A group of homeless people once walked into the church and pastor Shaun, he is  Ryan's father and mother Janice welcomed then with open arms. But it was the rest of the congregation that had a problem. Snark comments about the homeless people stinking up the incredibly large room and flies suddenly buzzing all over were made. I knew why dirty hungry looking people walked in that day. It was for a free meal as the church was having a celebration and food was involved. The gal of the so called God fearing people that day was horrifying to witness. Pastor Shaun ended escorting the homeless people out of the church while apologizing profusely and send Ryan with them to buy them food. It was horrible to see how members of a church claiming to do God's will can be so cruel. I never went back there after that day.

NBRyan has an older sister Riley and the spawn of satin. She decided to hate me on sight. A fake welcome to our home smile and a grip too tight handshake. As time went by and the more I went over to their house Riley became even more vicious. She gifted me with black bags crammed to the brim of her old clothes. In front of her equally snobby friends. They had all laughed when she made a snide comment. "Even your welfare checks can't buy my hand-me-downs. It's way out of your price range" Ryan was nowhere in sight. I think he went to go pick up snack platters that his vindictive sister had ordered. Even though the particular place delivers to your doorstep. When Ryan had returned the mask was back on. "Oh brother mine, I hope you don't mind that I gave Stacey some of the clothes I don't wear anymore" she had gushed and hugged me. But it was more of trying to suffocate me with her thin arms and squeezing the air out of my lungs. Ryan had smiled obliviously blind to his sister's cruel edge. If I had refused that clothes, Ryan would've thought of me as ungrateful. How I wish I could've wiped the self-righteous smirk off of Riley's face.