The Trip To Bora Bora

What are we ?

We continued to lay on the couch but now I starting speaking. "You know even though I did that we did have some good times together. Is this what I really wanted though to be back at square one instead of in a committed relationship with someone for years?" I looked into Montez eyes looking for comfort. There wasn't any, he seemed to be in his own thoughts. I give him a little nudge looking to get a response from him. "Uh, a little hard work in a relationship can never go bad. Do you really have to look much harder?" He says, never meeting my eyes. He looks at my neatly crossed hands, then my loose curls in my hair, then my neck, and then all the way down. "What do you mean and why do you keep looking at me like that, Montez?" I pick up his chin so he's looking at me but he pulls away after a few seconds. 

"I'm right here don't you see. I want you and only you. I've always wanted you. Ever since the last few weeks of college. You never noticed me but I damn sure noticed you. You always had the brightest smile on your face. From that moment I knew I would make you happy someday. With De'Andre in your life, I knew it wasn't the time. You always seemed so happy and I couldn't ruin that. He always seemed like a good guy who would treat you right anyway so if it wasn't me I would want it to be him." He pauses as he sees a single tear slide down my face. He wipes it away "Let me finish before you go on crying like a baby." A smile. A smile appears on my face. I felt the joy rise inside me for the first time in a long time. He starts to speak again. "I always hoped we would find a way to each other because I dreamed that I could call you my wife, that I could wake up and turn over to see you in the morning and see you smile at me with that beautiful smile of yours, that we would have wonderful kids together, that you would get treated like the women that you are, that we would travel together, That we'll go on lothat we would share a home together, that we would share our life goals together, that we'll go on amazing dates; long walks on the beach, go on boat rides, race around the world, that we'll have a lot of fun tgether, that we woud comlete our dreams together, that we would grow together, that we would support and love each other, that soon after we would die old together. Of course, that's out of order but you get the gist of things. He smiled brightly, looking me in the eyes clearly. "So when I ask do you really have to look that hard it's because I want you to be mine forever, I want to do everything with you, and I surely do mean it."

Here come the waterworks. The tears just start flowing I don't know if it was because of what happened with De'Andre or because what he said was so romantic and no soul has every taking the time out their day to do that for me. You know what I believe it's what he said to me 

"No one has ever said something so romantic to me in all 4 relationships I've been in since high school. I don't want to rush into anything too quickly. I haven't even officially ended things with De'Andre. I still have to get all my stuff and get everything situated with him once we get back home. He's someone that it'll take time to get over, we were together for 4 years ya know. I do want you to know that with all the time I've spent with you and all the letter's I've gotta you managed to steal a small piece of my heart." I grab his hands and I felt this spark, like the one I got when we kissed the first kiss. 

"Honestly I understand where you're coming from. I wouldn't want you to be with me while still in love with another man. It's happened before and I don't think I could go through it again especially because I love you so much. Alright, so when you're ready, make sure you come to me but until then we'll just hang out with friends so, I can make you fall in love with me instead of him." He lets out a small and cute small laugh. " We'll do everything I told you I wanted to do with you. I was looking at the ground trying not to show different emotions but when I looked up he wrapped his hand on the slide of my face, leaned in slowly, and softly planted a long and passionate kiss. His lips were warm and soft. I felt a smile go across my face as we kissed. That's what I wanted this whole time, I felt the spark and it was stronger than ever. 

"I kinda wanted to I actually want to say thank you, Montez. I really enjoyed getting those letters every day, They made me feel something I hadn't felt in so long ya know. It's something I've been looking for since a year ago when De'Andre started acting differently. I was like he lost all love for me and not I kinda regained that back from these. Once again thank you so much." 

"I'm glad I could make you feel that way, I'm glad that we got to talk about all of this but now that it's off our chest. I know I said just friends but would you like to go on a date with me, tonight? I know this is a little forward but I would really like to take you out somewhere beautiful just like you." He gives me a kind smile.

"Just friends for now but I would love to go out with you tonight! What time should I be ready?"

"Eight, dress nice but bring an extra outfit for comfort. We should get to bed though unless you wanna talk more."

"Nope, takes rest to look this good." I teased.

We laid together, my head on his chest, his arms wrapped around me. He was fast asleep but for some reason I just couldn't fall asleep. I looked at him just admiring him silently. I rubbed my Thumb softly down his face. I planted a light kiss on his cheek and then laid awake, until I drifted sleep calmly.