Just Another Fan in Your Eyes

Chapter 3: The Help

Chapter Three: The Help

My eyelids were raised halfway before my brain signaled to me that I was still breathing. I felt a tight knot in my chest which seemed to be getting heavier and tighter by the second.

Blurred lights were fading and reappearing right above my head, and more than just a couple of faces attached to bodies dressed in white garments were eyeing me repeatedly. My head was still revolving, my mind unclear of what was going on or where I was, until I realized the weird shaped cup-like object placed and secured on my mouth....'a cannula tube?' I thought.

"Hurry, hurry! Get her in! We don't have much time!" I could barely hear the paling sound that was louder from my left ear side before a loud door thud echoed through my eardrums and everything went black once again.

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It felt like only seconds have passed since I went unconscious before my eyes opened up once again, but this time, it was different.

My eyes widely open, hot pain traveled up my throat. Not very long passed before agony crawled up inside my body, and I felt warm liquid squirt out my mouth and all over the tube pinned to it. Surprisingly, the guess of what it was didn't take much time to be reassured by my brain. I knew what it was by then, but now my oxygen supply is covered in bloody vomit and my breathing rate is getting faster and heavier.

My view was spinning around in circles, my tired, yet challengingly "strong" figure fought back as much as possible to get the O2 inside me that my lungs cried out for. My stomach felt funny, as if little inhumane creatures sneaked around inside it, and my mind couldn't gather much thoughts.

Suddenly and without warning, stabbing pain arose from within my chest. My breathing rate was getting lower and weaker. My eyes were forced to shut, salty tears running down the side of my face, wetting my ears. My small, fragile arms wiggled, my feet trying to shuffle out of the pain. The humans around me yelled out things my head couldn't make out, moving faster around the wheeled bed I laid on. All the noise around me remarkably died out, and my whole body felt numb. My skinny fingers felt as cold as fresh ice cream coming out of the freezer. My arms and feet begging for a break fell motionlessly in their place, giving up. All I could feel was my slowing heart beat coming to almost a complete stop.

'This is it,' was all my brain could make up, before I sensed every single cell in my body stopped functioning, including the most important organ- my heart.

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*Inside Leslie's Head*

I've never really considered any human being to be 'perfect'. I never believed it and I never admitted it, either. It felt like it was too good to be true. I always only believed God was perfect and no one else. Because God was no human.

But if Harold Edward Styles seems to be so perfect, then the least he could be is so close to it. I've never been so attached to a celebrity before, let alone a human being- an existing soul. I always told myself hanging on to someone who doesn't care about you is a waste of time and dignity. But that wasn't the case with Harry.

'People say he cares, but does he, really? Yes, he probably would if he knew anything about my existence, but if I died right now, he wouldn't know; therefore, he wouldn't care. Aren't I right?'

I've always imagined being the girl he laughs with, he's himself with; the girl he would want to be with every second he gets a chance. I feel like I'd make him more than happy. But how would I know that for sure? Heck, I can't even let him know I exist! Why's it so hard to reach a normal human being? He might be the sweetest, cutest and loveliest of all, but deep inside, we all know he's still a normal human being....but one that not anyone can reach. And that's what hurts most. He's absolutely unreachable.

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(A/N): I'm sooooo sorry! I know I'm almost a week late, but I've been out of town unexpectedly last weekend then had a test pretty much every single day this week! And I took a nap and woke up late and I skipped my Algebra homework (which was a test review to my next test) to finish writing this! I know it's super short but I try my hardest, I promise! And by the way, the more votes I get, the more it motivates me to write faster! So please vote/comment! It would mean so much! Thank you all for reading! Love you lots! .xx