Nova

Chapter Three

Auroras pov
Adrenaline pumping through my veins is all I can feel and the insane beat my heart is drumming too is making my head spin but I can't help but feel like I'm on a high while I'm bouncing around the ring with the crowd yelling things that get lost in translation so all it is to me is blank noise.
Get in. Get out.
That's the biggest rule I've ever learned with this sport, go in and do what you gotta do then get out before you get hit.
I can see the beat redness that's peaking out from under the black tape that is wrapped around my knuckles and the strong sting that I usually feel is being suppressed by the buzzing in my head, I've done fight after fight and none of them have ever felt like this.
It has to be the fact that I know I'm not fully human and at the moment every ounce of fear that has consumed me since Friday is now gone. All the anger I've been building up against the assholes who used me as their human punching bag is being released through my fist and causing the tan skinned deep brown haired girl to fly backwards with every blow.
I know this girl and usually I wouldn't send this hard of blows to a girl I consider one of my best friends but right now I can't hear anything and I defiantly can't think straight.
I dodge Alessia's next combo and go for an open spot right below her solar plexus but right before I can get back out she lands three good hits around my rib cage area, I hiss in pain the bruising yet to be completely healed which is something i failed to mention to Kimber and Jack when they were arguing about letting me even still do this fight.
" Damn it Ali" I mumble through gritted teeth but I think she heard me because her dark blue eyes flash a sense of worry  the second the words leave my lips. I stumble for a second when I try and throw a few jabs her way and that's when something hits me I don't know if it was the fact that I've been Leary about fighting Ali for a while now or if it's the fact that the pain coursing through my body is over powering every ounce of my being, but something really snaps in my heart when my eyes land on the tattoo of the necklace Alessia's mom gave here for her fifteenth  birthday not even twenty four hours before her mom and dad passed away in a car accident. The tattoo shows the necklace hanging down around her left wrist and the charm landing in her lower palm,the black ink doesn't even take away from the beauty of it and I will forever be in love with that one part of her especially.
I take a shot at Alessia's rib cage again and it sends her flying back into the ropes and I take those few moments while she regains her balance to look around for Sofi,I search the front rows for the tan skinned nine year old little girl with her dark brown hair pulled into two pigtails or a bun probably. A moment later right as Alessia starts to advance towards me again I spot Sofi off to my right with her curly hair pulled into non other than a bun like I thought, her small hands are clapping harshly and her wide brown eyes are showing immense hope. I take a second as i dodge Alessia's lightning speed fist to think of how being in this ring with her right now makes me feel completely human more human than I've felt in the last two years since well a day that I'd like to have never happened really, and it doesn't have anything to do with the fact that just a few days ago I found out I'm not fully human it's my humanity as a general sense basically my purpose for existence that hasn't felt right and it's now that I realize what I need to do because in all honesty even if I did win this money I'd give it to her she deserves it for what she's been through in the last two years. I shuffle towards her and get close enough going for an angle where it looks like I'm going for a hit to be able to whisper in her ear
" Knock me out Ali..."
She looks taken back by the use of her nickname and blinks before giving a convincing but light punch to my abdomen before she hisses in my ear
" No!"
" Alessia do it now, I can see how tired you are from working okay"
She lets out a almost inaudible sigh before I back up little bit and wink at her as I go to throw a left hook and she lands a good and hard right one on my head. My body falls onto the Matt and I lay there waiting for the ref to call it and ten counts later I hear him announce Alessia as the winner and not even two seconds later I feel arms pick me up bridal style and carry me to what I'm assuming is the nurses back room in this place or the car.
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Beep beep beep
Can someone please stop that god awful beeping before it drives me even more mad than I already am, I internally scream when it continues on its steady pace of annoyance. I try and open my eyes to find out where it's coming from but I find it hard to do so and once I finally do get my eyes open I'm met with intense white light just blinding me instantly which causes me to whine an quickly shut my eyes
" Owww" I groan hearing how rough and husky my voice comes out I can now feel how dry my throat is as it basically prays for water. I pry my eyes open again blinking rapidly to adjust to the light before attempting to speak again to whoever is in this room if anyone is I guess
" Water"
I hear a quick shuffle and when I lift my head up I'm met with Dark blue eyes and a bunch of machines surrounding my bed and with a good look at my body and the things around me I realize that I'm in a hospital room not a nurses crappy back room at a under ground boxing shack. Alessia's eyes quickly scan my face before grabbing the water from the small table beside me and uncaps it before handing the bottle to me which I gladly take and chug down as fast as possible feeling the cool liquid take away the dry burning that was in the back of my throat. I cough a bit and squeeze my eyes shut for a minute while I listen to Alessia speak
" Kimber,Jack,and Indi took Sofi to get something to eat and Cyrus is asleep over there she's been taking it the hardest Rora nobody could get her to stop crying really so she eventually just fell asleep"
I blink at her giving a confused expression because one why the hell was my Bestfriend crying and two why was I in the hospital because I know for sure Ali's hit wasn't that hard.
" You don't remember what happened do you?"
I shake my head No before shutting my eyes again and trying to rack my mind of any sort of memory from the last twenty four hours but I'm coming up empty and extremely frustrated causing my whole nerve system to jump into a break down as I start to sob and my face turns red as I continue to get angry at myself
For not being able to remember what happened to me.
There's a calming and familiar feeling to the cold hands that grip my blazing small hands gently before slowly bringing them down to my lap as she holds them in her own I notice her muscles flexing in her arms with every string twitch my arms and hands make to move back up to my face and physically shake my brain until I remember, it's the frustration and anxiety behind it all that I'm surprised Alessia still remembers how to handle.
" Shhh... Rora it's okay I'll tell you just breath mi amor"
I watch her carefully breath in and out attempting at my best to get my erratic breaths under some form of control.
My red stained eyes never left her as i switched between keeping my breathing under control and flipping out and with that came the fact that i have no idea how long we've been sitting here but once I can breath okay on my own my eyes flicker towards the window and I can see the sun going down
Which is almost a que for Kimber,Jack, and Indi to walk back into the room with Sofi on Jacks back smiling bigger than ever.
" Okay so does somebody wanna tell me what happened to me ?"
Hesitation consumes their faces except for Sofi and Cyrus seeing as Cyrus is still knocked out cold and Sofi has her head Buried in my chest with her tiny arms wrapped the best she can manage around my waist, I play with her hair out of habit and watch how the four people I consider my family are shifting their weight every few minutes and gnawing at their bottom lips.
If you could physically see heart break I'm absolutely sure it'd be how my hands are clenching,palms sweating, bodies trembling out of control and my eyes... My eyes are filled to the brim with tears that just won't fall and the sting is making my cheeks flush a red deeper than the pain I'm feeling emotionally and physically at this very moment as I stare my best friend in the eyes and continuously send prayers to God that my voice won't fail me now because I can feel the break stutter and the tremble with every milli second and heart beat.
" Indi?..."
My voice sounds hoarse again and everything I assumed happened as I struggled to release the words from my throat the tension in my body begging to know of an answer nobody will give me causing every aspect of my physically living to become dysfunctional.

Drowning
Not the easy kind either, nothing about what my body and mind feels like is easy. I'm not saying drowning is easy because it's not but there is more than one way to drown and this right here isn't the I'm unconscious and my lungs fill with water with no hope of me waking up. This right here is the drowning where your stuck under water fighting with every ounce of strength left in your body even tho you know your losing air in your lungs with every attempt at saving yourself
Or a useless try at screaming where somewhere in the back of your over drive mind you believe that someone will hear you miles below the waves in the dark depts of the water nobody ever talks about, it's that kind of drowning where you can count the seconds with the slow agonizing increase of the sting in your throat as it reaches all the way to your toes making your spine contract as your eyes slam shut because you swear to god that you saw something swimming around you and the panic intensifies that sting you beg to disappear
As the paranoia of being haunted almost takes over your senses in an instant.
I take a shaky deep breath the dryness of my throat returning full force causing several coughs to follow it but this overwhelming consumption fuels the three words that follow my death by coughing.
" Jack?;"
"Kimber?;"
" P-p-ple-please"
Has anybody ever told you before that silence is the loudest of it all?
367 seconds is how long the deafening silence lasted and around 149 is when my tears finally fell staining my cheeks and flooding my neck and chest as they flow with nothing to stop them.
" GOD DAMN GUYS CANT YOU SEE YOUR KILLING HER NOW MORE THAN YOU WOULD BY TELLING HER I KNOW NONE OF YOU WANNA SEE THIS BECAUSE I KNOW I SURE AS HELL DONT SO MAN THE HELL UP AND TELL HER OR I WILL BECAUSE THIS IS BREAKING MY HEART JUST AS MUCH AS ITS BREAKING YOURS DAMN IT!"
All stunted non blinking eyes land on Alessia and at that same moment Sofi's grip tightens around my mid section causing a tremendous amount of pain that I don't remember feeling before to make its self awfully and painfully known, but none the less I rub Sofi's back with not a single complaint from my lips. Looking back at the four of them Kimber finally opens her mouth but struggles with getting the words out.
" Okay... So Aurora something happened as you can tell because your in the hospital which I know you hate more than anything so I'd never take you to one unless it was absolutely necessary that you went which you can say this was more than necessary..."
" Kimber!"
Her head snaps up  from its stare towards the floor,
" You're rambling"
She blushes and apologizes softly under her breath before starting again
" I'm so so sorry.... Rora I'm so damn sorry.."
She continues to shake her head before lifting her eyes to look at me 
" So after Alessia knocked you out Sofi jumped into our arms and we were paying attention to Sofi thinking that Alessia was going to make sure you were okay or the ref would but next thing we knew we looked up and Alessia was talking to the ref and you weren't laying on the Matt anymore... We looked around everywhere until somebody yelled that they saw some guys pick you up and take you outside..."
My shaking becomes unbearable just at the thought of what she's implying and I instantly shake my head quickly and repeatedly
" No no no no no no no no NO!"
Alessia snatches Sofi from her place of my lap before I curl into a ball and let the broken dry sobs be released
" no..."
This is what drowning feels like;