Nova

Chapter 4

Auroras pov

It's been three tortuous days since Kimber told me what happened and my world fell apart.
It's been two traumatic days since the police came saying they got it all on video from the mom and pop place on the corner.
It's been one painful day since the cops said they caught the dumbasses but not without a sorrow heartbreaking casualty of a brave caring twenty two year old.
It's also been no longer than five minutes and 44 seconds since Alessia has left my side and I already feel the addiction recurring. 

My brains starting to despise the off shade of white that consumes the room I've been held captive too for the last three days and the constant beeping is imprinted into my brain just as bad as their murderous stares. The second day I was here the doctors ordered me to see a on call therapist that was a small older woman with a loud personality and a caring smile, I started to remember the attack and my heart,mind and gut can't decide if that's a good thing or a horrible one. Seriously tho which is better to suffer with really, Trauma or unbearable frustration I'd prefer neither.
I really am praying to get out of here soon I don't wanna hold up our trip that long and it's already been three days extra,
I groan squeezing my already shut eyes as I take a breath listening to the agonizing beeping and hoping the door to my room opens very soon.
My full on panic right now is half imbedded fear and the other half is my painful addiction to Alessia, that day two years ago made me think this could never happen again, me finding her again was something I just thought wasn't in my cards anymore; but here we are and over these last three days even under the circumstances id do it all over again just to see her with a real smile on her face and that peaceful beauty back in her personality, man would I do it all over again for sure.
   I may sound crazy but for the last three days whenever it's either everyone here or just Alessia and I, I find myself noticing how her real smile has come back or how her personality is back to the calm sarcastic badass thing it is I really don't know why but I do know that even tho I have three broken ribs I can't help but laugh at her jokes and comebacks towards my family just like old times.
" How are you feeling sweetie?"
I open my eyes looking towards the door to see the therapist lady who's name I'm pretty sure is Faith slowly walk into my room before taking a seat next to the hospital bed I'm in.
" I've defiantly been better Faith that's for sure"
" I know that sweetie, I just wanted to talk really, talking helps people process things so it doesn't even have to be about the attack it can be about anything Aurora."
Oh so it was Faith
She folds her hands in her lap giving me a gentle look as I lean back against the bed and try and hide away from the fact that there are really only three things I wanna talk about at this moment and that I'll end up just talking about all three if I start talking about any.
" Okay... I'll give it a shot faith"
" okay honey just start whenever you want"

I fiddle with my fingers taking a quick look at the door to my hospital room than back at her before my eyes finally find there way to the floor and I start speaking with a drumming heart.

" In all honesty I don't even know what emotion to feel out of all the ones I'm feeling right now, I'm angry as hell at the people who've been doing this crap to me for the past five years, I'm scarred... Every time I close my eyes I'm reminded of their faces of the smirks they contained and the cynical laughs that rung out every single time. I just want my dad... I really want my dad back right now but I know that's not gonna happen because he's out somewhere in another country working his ass off just like he has been since mom died, and I hate it I absolutely hate it I hate that he can't be here right now because I need him I really do...On top of all this mess I can't help but just feel more confused with myself than ever before, two years ago when Alessia's parents died I couldn't stand to see her the way she was really but I still tried everything in a fifteen year olds power to make it okay for her and Sofi. It was the least I could do for the girl i'd been Bestfriends with my entire life and for the one I started falling in love with in ninth grade, it wasn't an easy fall either trust me when I fell for her it was hard,messy and all around intense and addictive I couldn't get her out of my head for the life of me and by the time the start of tenth grade came around I was completely gone on her without a doubt in my mind, I could have sworn it wasn't her that had me gone considering what was going on at that time but even sober as hell I was still gone that's when I knew, I knew it was her. But at the end of sophomore year in May things took a sudden turn, I was still involved in a lot of things I'm not proud of but on May 29th I was sooo excited to celebrate Alessia's birthday with her not only had we'd been spending a immense amount of time with each other lately but I was starting to think she may like me as well and I really can't even explain how perfect that night was and;