Heartbeat

Trapped

Please be easy on me- it's my very first book! It will be unprofessional but I hope you like it!

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Ethan. Ethan. The name I love, adore, and honor. His smile, hair, eyes, voice, humor- I can go on and on. There isn't a thing I would change about him. His brown, wavy hair is perfect, his hazel eyes are the most beautiful thing I've ever seen, and I can't believe there is someone this perfect EXISTING.

Every time I see him, I get nervous. My palms get sweaty, and all I want to do is disappear. Even though I like him, I don't want him to know. I just want him to notice me.

It makes me mad how he doesn't realize how much I love him. For seven years now, I've had a magnet in my heart, drawing me to him. My heart thumps hard when I see him- so hard that I can hear it. Sometimes I wonder if he hears it too.

My friends all know I like him... Or should I say my whole grade knows. It's all because of the stupid mistake I made in 4th grade. We used to pass out Valentines day candies to our class, and I attached a note to the twizzler wrapper I would give to Ethan saying "I love you."

Don't ask me why- it was when I was nine. Anyways, I won't ever forgive myself for doing that. I think he still remembers and probably won't ever forget. I bet he threw it away after all.

If I ever have a husband other than him, I'll still like Ethan more. It makes me feel trapped and unfree. Will he ever like me? I'm inside this cage and I can't get out of it.