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hey areum, so i've been thinking a lot about what you said. about me being abused, i mean. i guess you're right. ahsung has been hitting and pinching me a lot more recently and i lied when i said it was a one time thing because what you saw that night was not the first time it has happened and as much as i'd like to believe otherwise i can finally see that she's manipulating me. with her words too. and i know it sounds stupid, and that i might sound like a fuckboy, but i do have feelings for her. actually it's more along the lines of a soft spot, but i know there's a place in my heart for ahsung. she can be so sweet and kind a gentle and loving at times and i always told myself that it was ok if she got a little angry sometimes. and it was ok if she took it out on me, since i always fucked up but i just... idk anymore. i don't know how to feel anymore. i should be disappointed in her for doing this to me and controlling me for so long except i'm sitting here in tears right now and realizing how stupid i was for letting her do it. i'm more upset with myself than i am with her. i'm covered in bruises right now and that's why i won't stop wearing long sleeves. i guess it's my fault for being so optimistic tho. i should have known she wouldn't change and that things would only get worse. i should have seen the signs. i mean, how dumb do you have to be to think that abuse can only happen to girls? that abuse can't be verbal? apparently you have to be as dumb as i was. i know you don't like me calling myself dumb, but it's the truth. if ahsung's yelling was useless to you, at least was right about one thing. i'm stupid. i find it hard to believe when people think otherwise. especially you. sometimes it makes me feel like you pity me and what ahsung has done, others it makes me feel better. my mood has been fluctuating a lot of the time lately, i think it's because of her. i didn't break up with her yet. and i think the reason i haven't before is that i always knew somewhere in the back of my mind that nothing about that relationship was normal, nor did i want to risk more of her wrath. i cried a lot today. don't tell hoseok or jungkook or anyone, because they'll probably say it's pussy of me. and keep this secret between you and i, because i don't want anyone to laugh. i used to think it was funny when a guy got beat up by a girl. now not so much. but some people, maybe even our friends, still think like that and i'd prefer you never told. so yeah, i've been thinking a lot about what you said. about me being abused i mean. and i guess you're right. i just pretend it doesn't because it hurts less.|

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hey areum, so i've been thinking a lot about what you said. about me being abused, i mean. i guess you're right. ahsung has been hitting and pinching me a lot more recently and i lied when i said it was a one time thing because what you saw that night was not the first time it has happened and as much as i'd like to believe otherwise i can finally see that she's manipulating me. with her words too. and i know it sounds stupid, and that i might sound like a fuckboy, but i do have feelings for her. actually it's more along the lines of a soft spot, but i know there's a place in my heart for ahsung. she can be so sweet and kind a gentle and loving at times and i always told myself that it was ok if she got a little angry sometimes. and it was ok if she took it out on me, since i always fucked up but i just... idk anymore. i don't know how to feel anymore. i should be disappointed in her for doing this to me and controlling me for so long except i'm sitting here in tears right now and realizing how stupid i was for letting her do it. i'm more upset with myself than i am with her. i'm covered in bruises right now and that's why i won't stop wearing long sleeves. i guess it's my fault for being so optimistic tho. i should have known she wouldn't change and that things would only get worse. i should have seen the signs. i mean, how dumb do you have to be to think that abuse can only happen to girls? that abuse can't be verbal? apparently you have to be as dumb as i was. i know you don't like me calling myself dumb, but it's the truth. if ahsung's yelling was useless to you, at least was right about one thing. i'm stupid. i find it hard to believe when people think otherwise. especially you. sometimes it makes me feel like you pity me and what ahsung has done, others it makes me feel better. my mood|

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hey areum, so i've been thinking a lot about what you said. about me being abused, i mean. i guess you're right. ahsung has been hitting and pinching me a lot more recently and i lied when i said it was a one time thing because what you saw that night was not the first time it has happened and as much as i'd like to believe otherwise i can finally see that she's manipulating me. with her words too. and i know it sounds stupid, and that i might sound like a fuckboy, but i do have feelings for her. actually it's more along the lines of a soft spot, but i know there's a place in my heart for ahsung. she can be so sweet and kind a gentle and loving at times and i always told myself that it was ok if she got a little angry sometimes. and it was ok if she took it out on me, since i always fucked up but i just... idk anymore. i don't know how to feel anymore. i should be disappointed in her for doing this to me and controlling me for so long except i'm sitting here in tears right now and realizing how stupid i was for letting her do it. i'm more upset with myself than i am with her. i'm covered in bruises right now and that's why i won't stop wearing long sleeves. i guess it's my fault for being so optimistic tho. i should have known she wouldn't change and that things would only get worse. i should have seen the signs. i mean, how dumb do you have to be to think that abuse can onl|

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hey areum, so i've been thinking a lot about what you said. about me being abused, i mean. i guess you're right. ahsung has been hitting and pinching me a lot more recently and i lied when i said it was a one time thing because what you saw that night was not the first time it has happened and as much as i'd like to believe otherwise i can finally see that she's manipulating me. with her words too. and i know it sounds stupid, and that i might sound like a fuckboy, but i do have feelings for her. actually it's more along the lines of a soft spot, but i know there's a place in my heart for ahsung. she can be so sweet and kind a gentle and loving at times and i always told myself that it was ok if she got a little angry sometimes. and it was ok if she took it out on me, since i always fucked up but i just... idk anymore. i don't know how to feel anymore. i should be disap|

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hey areum, so i've been thinking a lot about what you said. about me being abused, i mean. i guess you're right. ahsung has been hitting and pinching me a lot more recently and i lied when i said it was a one time thing because what you saw that night was not the first time it has happened and as much as i'd like to believe otherwise i can fin|

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hey areum, so i've been thinking a lot about what you said. about me being abused, i mean. i guess you're right. ahsung has been hitting and pinching me a lot more recently and i lied when i said it was a one time thing because what you saw that ni|

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hey areum, so i've been thinking a lot about what you said. about me being abused, i mean. i guess you're right. ahsung has been hitting and pinching me a lot more recent|

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hey areum, so i've been thinking a lot about what you said. about me being abused, i mean. i guess you're right.|

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