Can't help falling in love with you

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Arlo got a call while he was doing the laundry, it was the hospital. They told him that Alexzander got into a car crash and was currently in critical condition. They told him that his lover could die and that he should probably come over as soon as possible.

Arlo's world came crashing down. His anchor could die. He realised that the world wasn't just the two of them, that his problems were nothing compared to losing the one you love most. He grabbed his stuff and rushed to the hospital. Seeing Alexzander laying there with what looked like a couple thousand wires broke his heart. When he got closer he also noticed the small cuts messing up his freckle covered skin. He got angry, he wanted to murder the person that hit Alexzander. He realised once again that he could lose him and just as he started tearing up, Alexzander started blinking.

"Hey baby". Alexzander croaked out as Arlo looked at him. He wiped his eyes quickly, not wanting to show Alexzander how vulnerable he was at the moment. "Hey baby come here", Arlo walked closer. "Sweetheart come on, don't cry". Alexzander said, trying to move his arm to give Arlo a sense of reassurance. Alexzander was strong minded and he truly believed he would fight his way through this.

"What happened?" A teary eyed Arlo asked.

"A truck slipped on ice and murdered our baby, I flew right out. Pretty badass right? I should be in a movie". He chuckled sadly. This was him, trying to lighten the mood in even the saddest of times.

"Baby don't joke around right now". Arlo started kissing Alexzanders face all over. "I thought I lost you, I really thought I did", he wiped his eyes again. "I love you", he croaked out, "so damn much". Arlo said as if this was the last time he could ever say those words again. The thought made him teary eyed once again. He couldn't lose him. Why did the world hate him? Why didn't they want him to be happy?

The next few days Arlo was in the hospital memorising every single detail of his boyfriends face, counting the freckles and imprinting the different coloured specks in his eyes. He held his hand, desperately trying to memorise how they fitted in his perfectly. He kissed him in an attempt to remember how Alexzanders lips felt against his. At night he prayed and prayed for his boyfriend to get better. For a glimpse of hope, but all he got was a face that slightly became thinner and hair that got dryer and they both realised that this was the end.

After a week, Alexzander came with a request. "Baby can you sing me to sleep?" He murmured, "like I used to with you?"

Arlo just nodded tiredly, even though he knew what this meant, he refused to believe it. Alexzander was just going to sleep. He would wake up tomorrow and nothing would be wrong. They would get married, they had so much more to live for. Alexzander couldn't die, it just wouldn't be fair. He started singing, " W-wise men say, only fools rush in", he could see that Alexzander only got weaker, "but I can't help falling in love with you". He grabbed Alexzanders hand, pressing soft kisses to his knuckles. "Shall I stay", he watched the heart monitor, "would it be a sin", could see it slow down. "If I c-can't help falling", he squeezed harder, a desperate attempt to keep him alive, to feel his warmth for one last time, "in love", a tear left his eye. "With you". The heart monitor started bleeping and his world went black.

[I'm sorry if this was too sad, I was listening to tøp. Blame Tyler. Edited: 9th August 2016]