Can't help falling in love with you

Bonus.

Arlo was sitting outside, it was a sunny day, there were birds singing and little wafts of wind were passing by. Arlo liked to imagine they were occasional hugs from Alexzander. He had found a letter while he was cleaning, it was from Alexzander. He was currently contemplating whether or not he should open it. It still hurt, a lot. He opened the letter and a ring fell out, Arlo clasped a hand in front of his mouth. It was beautiful. He looked at it and saw small rhinestones. When he flipped it around he saw 'forever and always' engraved on the inside. Tearing up he took the letter out and started reading.

"Dear Arlo, you once asked me why I loved you. The truth is, I can't answer that question. I love the way you smile and the way you cover your mouth because you think your teeth are hideous. (They're not baby, they're adorable.) I love the way you complain about my food and throw hissy fits whenever I don't pay attention. I love how when I'm gaming you crawl inside my tank tops and how you keep asking for a dog, even though you can't even take care of a plastic plant. I love how you keep talking about needing to lose weight but still keep eating those chocolate chip cookies. Damn right baby, you deserve them! I love how you told me your story even though it's so very hard for you. Trust me, those panic attacks and sleepless nights do not make you weak. I love the way your eyes twinkle and I love your freckles that form constellations on your skin. I love your kisses and your careful touches. I love when we get drunk and you go absolutely crazy. I love how you trace shapes on my skin and play with my hair when you think I'm asleep, but most of all, I love you, for all that you are, all that you were and all that you ever will be. I'm too much of a wuss to actually get down on one knee but Arlo, will you marry me?
~yours sincerely Alexzander "

Arlo was bawling when he finished reading, he slipped the ring on his finger and wiped his eyes. He missed Alexzander so much, he just wanted him back. Thoughts of suicide were running through his mind, anything to bring him back to his lover but he had to stay strong. He had to show Alexzander that he could live without him, that he could be strong. Maybe one day they'd finally reunite and show their love once again, but for now he had to make peace with the fact that he had to live alone and it was a comforting thought to know that Alexzander wanted to marry him. That night, when he went to sleep, he sang softly for the first time in months. And as he fell asleep he saw Alexzanders face, smiling at him and that was all Arlo needed to know that he was going to be okay and that Alexzander was always going to be there, watching over him as he lived his life.

[edited: 9th August 2016]