What I crave so deeply
has been taken away from me.
The things I wish I could feel again
have been drained from every inch of my body.
I wish I could see someone
And be filled with desire and fascination,
but I just haven't been able to.
I wish I could stick with one person,
one person who could make me happy for the rest of my life.
But there's too much beauty and too much pain to stay
so I end up running away.
It's not fair on me
it's not fair on my friends
but this is how I am
doomed with lust,
forbidden from love.
