Fractured (Ziall)

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My band and I are were requested to go to this important interview with James Cordon. I don't mind interviewing with James, because he's a good guy, and I know if he ever had to say something offensive or ask him something personal, like other interviewers do, I know he's only doing it because he has to, and that he doesn't mean any harm. I would say I'm good friends with him. I asked him why are we having an interview, and he told me he wasn't 100% sure why.

But I don't understand why we have to have a interview now. We are on break, I wanted to take this time to relax, and move on. What can be so important? Can't it wait till we get back into tour? A break means that we are not associated with ANYTHING with the band unless of an emergency. I bet this isn't an emergency.

I just need a break now. A break from tour, writing songs, interviews, everything. They are all bringing back painful memories that I don't want to deal with right now. Ever since it's been the four of us, things haven't been the same. I still love the band with the boys as much as I did before and the fans I still love 100%, but it would be so much better if the five of us were reunited again like old times. That's how it started, that's how it should end.

The day where Zayn told us that he wants to leave the band is still so fresh in my mind, I was so devastated. He just suddenly told us he wanted to leave. I wanted him to stay more than anything, especially what happened for the last few years...

"Niall? Can I come in?" I hear Zayn from the outside of the hotel room door.

"Yeah" I replied, my pillow still hugged at my chest.

I hear the door open and close. My face was turned away from the door, and looking out the window. I hear Zayn's steps come closer to the bed, and then I felt Zayn sit behind me. We sat there for a few moments, not saying a single word.

"Niall, I'm sorry for what happened" Zayn said, rubbing my back.

"I thought she liked me back, she gave me all the signs. How can Chloe just shut me down without giving me a chance?" I cried into the pillow.

"Niall, there is no point of crying over Chloe. She doesn't deserve you. If she can't see what an amazing guy you are, it's her loss. She'll never find such a sweet and caring guy like you. There will be someone in this world who will see what I see"

I turned to face Zayn, and see him in his pajama pants only, and his hair all messy. I smiled softly at him and slowly nod. He is right, there is no point of crying over Chloe. I could have given her everything she will ever want, but this made me realize she isn't the one, she isn't what I'm looking for.

"Thanks Zayn, I needed to hear that" I said softly.

"Anytime Niall" He replied, moving the pillow away from my chest and pulling my into a hug.

I bury my head in Zayn's neck and wrap my arms around him. I can still smell his cologne from the concert last night. Zayn pets my hair softly as he allows me to hold him tightly. I really wish that my mom was here to help me, but I'm glad I have Zayn here.

Zayn moves back from me and I look up at him. We both stopped, looking at each other. I'm starting to feel butterflies in my stomach. Why am I feeling this? I shouldn't be feeling this.

I see Zayn's eyes go from my eyes, to my lips. He's not..... He can't..... will he?

Zayn moves closer to my face, and I see him closing his eyes. He's going to kiss me... HE'S GOING TO KISS ME! What do I do? Do I allow him to kiss me? Would I kiss back? Should I push him off me.

But as soon as Zayn's lips hit mine, I closed my eyes and kissed him back. I knew this wasn't right, but it felt so right. We are band mates, we shouldn't be doing this at all, but I can't resist myself. I cannot deny the sparks I feel.