I didn't think I was gonna write in this, not for a while, but my dad gave me a speech (yes he was drunk..again)
He said that if I wanted to be like this, I had to be strong, he told me that like is hard, cruel, and awful, and that if I wanted yo be something I needed to be strong and smart. He said that someone or something could come and just rip out emotions and hurt me.
Little did he know that I already know how it feels.
He did say he accepted me but it's how I feel, that I don't need to dress like or cut my hair to pass. But I do, that's how I feel fucking damn it.
I know he meant good but, I'm just not in the right mind at the moment.
I literally started sobbing when my mom hugged me, I have felt so isolated and alone lately and I just needed that. I feel alone and I think I might lose this battle within myself, because I'm already drowning in these emotions
-sam
(I just noticed I forgot to publish this...*sigh*)
YOU ARE READING
journal
Non-Fictionjust gonna be my journal where I put personal stuff maybe I'll publish it
