When I start having my panic attacks before I start home schooling, I thought I was just different from anybody else, first sign of my disorders are fear of getting surrounded by a lot of people, second I don't feel comfortable with compliments, it got worse after I got rejected over a puppy love confession because I was an obese child, then I stop going out in my room, I locked myself, I starved myself, I throw tantrums at company parties that even my family said I was abnormal, then my parents divorce that's when I started to trust no one.
I remember that night, I was playing in living room with my parents' assistants, Dad slams the door and Mom follows. The assistant hush me when I was about to approach them, a lot of shouting, but the thing that I remember "Take that paranoid child of yours, change her name!" followed by a loud slap, the maid tries to cover my ears as my tears keep flowing around my face, that's when Mom keep searched for me, and the maid called her
"Diamond! Where are you? Diam?"
"If I weren't fat and ugly , would everyone like me Mom even Dad?"
"I love you for whoever you are, whatever you'll be." Her hug was so comforting that I thought I was important to the world for once.
Meeting the past people in my life seems to surreal, I sigh after reminiscing, my doctor would probably freaked out if she heard I got 3 attacks in one day, even collapsed twice.
"Heyaa kiddo! I thought your friends are coming with you" Robert, my stepdad greeted me.
"I got dismissed early, today's exhausting you know" I replied
"OMG I cooked a huge amount pasta, thinking that you would have visitors!!" I laughed 'cause he was always exaggerating things like this, and this how we got closer.
"Seriously Papa? I'll text them if you want?" I raised my eyebrows, his happy look change into worried one
"The school called, if you want I could talk to them about your condition" He said
"Promise you won't tell Mom" I begged and he nodded.
"Come play with your brother will you? He asked.
"I'm going to fetch ingredients for dinner" He added, I nodded in reply.
My brother, Jess, came to the world, just 3 years of separation of my parents, My mother apparently cheating with Robert, I understand why she done it, I forgive her and him. Jess was the reason why I cope up with fast recovery and we're home schooled
"Elise, there's Prince outside"
"What are you talking about, Jess" I said with a motherly look as I place a plate of spaghetti in front of him
"He wore same uniform as a prince would, look" as he pointed the window across us
I saw Miere standing across the street, okay you can't panic Diam, Jess is here, breathe, act normal.
I opened the door, okay you got this , take a breathe I remind myself
"Hey! neighbors will start complaining! I caught his attention, He chuckled for a little bit before crossing the street, but I closed the door before he could get near me
SOS! MIERE IN MY HOUSE, HELP!
PS: WE HAVE PASTA SO COME RRIGHT NOW
Okay breathe, Juls will come rescue you, just don't overthink about anything, distract yourself
An awkward knock comes, I open the door
"Hey"
"I thought you'll collapsed again, uhm a muscular guy just got out of the house so I thought you were in danger" He said
"That guy is my dad though" I reason out
" I need papers to show your Mom, can I wait inside? He asked
"Okay, just sit right in the sofa"
YOU ARE READING
"LOVE MODERATELY"
Teen Fiction"He's so near yet so far" Elise whispered to herself as she walk in the school hallway. Love is always accompanied by pain. Love is always unreachable and untouchable. You're happy yet sad, You're excited yet disappointed. You're in love at the same...
