When No One Else Is Around

Chapter 5

Connors POV

I lay in the grass and feel the wind blowing through my hair, I just needed time to think. I needed time to process these feelings I have for Troye. 

Would he even understand? Would he even be interested in me? 

I'm supposed to be studying with Troye right now, but I couldn't bring myself to confront him. It was too soon, this could ruin everything. I need to get to know Troye, I need him to be my friend. My best friend. I need Troye. 

I sit there for a few minutes trying to convince myself to face up to Troye. I sit up and finally start walking to his house. It's rainy outside and I can feel the raindrops hit my face. I turn the corner and have finally made it to his house. But that's when I notice Troye sitting on the porch with guitar in hand and I hear him softly singing. I pause and take a moment to just listen. Was that Troye singing? It was such a soft whisper, but it sounded absolutely beautiful and I never wanted to stop listening, but that's when I see Troyes head look up and he hurriedly stands up and sets his guitar down looking very uneasy.

Troyes POV

My pencil hits the paper and I scribble down some song lyrics. I pick up my guitar and strum a bit until I hear the write chords. I start mumbling the words 'Never knew loving could hurt this good' 

I hear footsteps and I look up to see Connor staring back at me, I quickly stand up and accidentally drop my guitar on the cold concrete floor and stumble forward nervously. 

"He- Hey Connor, I wasn't expecting you to show up, did you hear any of that?" I mutter.

Connor looks down quickly and nods his head, 

"Yeah it was.. incredible. I didn't know you played music." 

I start shaking my head nervously, 

"I don't. Well I mean not usually, I'm sorry you had to hear.. Anyways what are you doing here?" I try to change the subject.

"I just wanted to apologize for standing you up, I've just been so afraid to face you." He starts walking up to the porch, his wet hair dangling in his face.

He finally stops about an inch in front of me and looks me in the eyes, I notice tears swelling in his eyes,

"I wanna get to know you Troye, more than I've ever wanted to get to know about anyone before. I've been such an ass to you and I don't know what to do to get you to forgive me, I don't expect you to forgive me I just wanna change, I wanna be a better person for not only myself, but for you."

Connors POV

I didn't expect to let my emotions to get to me, to pour it out all to Troye like this, but before I know it I'm in a jumble of words.

"I wanna be a better person for not only myself, but for you. I know we haven't known each other a long time, but I want to get to know you Troye, I wanna know everything about you from the smallest things to the biggest th-"

That's when I was cut off, I feel Troyes hand touch my shoulder and suddenly all these emotions going through my mind stop and all I can think about is Troyes touch.

"I wanna be friends with you too." He whispers barely enough for me to hear him.

And then he wraps his long arms around my neck and pulls me into a hug, I can feel his heart beating against my chest and I know this is just as scary for me as it is for Troye.