Downspiral (Septiplier)

Chapter 10: Wait... What?

Sean/Jack's POV:

I just stare at Mark blankly. Not knowing how to respond. My heart is racing and my head is pounding. What do I say? What do I do? Oh god of fucks I don't know what to do!?

"Sean...."

I need to say something. "S-same... I mean... I love you too Mark." Well that was a hell of a lot easier than what I expected.

"Really?" He says looking at me. His face as red as his flannel shirt.

"Yes." I respond grabbing my arm and then looking down. "So uh... I'm going to start dinner now..."

I turn as I look at the clock. Who am I kidding it isn't any where close to dinner time for either of us.  "Ya know what I think I am gonna hop in the shower and then we can, I don't know watch a movie or something. Sound good?" I ask trying not to make eye contact as I walk towards the guest bedroom.

I feel him grip my arm. "Sean, did I just make things awkward?"

"No not at all." I say now wide eyed and looking at him. Trying to make him feel better about his decision. "Mark, it's true I do love you as well.... I just... Didn't know how to tell you... And I was sc-"

I get stopped to mark pulling me into a bear tight hug. "M-Mark? Your crushing my lungs." His grip loosens but he says nothing, his arms still wrapped around me. "Mark is everything okay?"

"I was scared Sean... That after I said something you'd leave back to Ireland, I also wanted you to move here.... But I don't feel like you'd want to..." He mumbles against my shoulder.

"I'd be glad to move here. Honestly I've been thinking about it. " I say hugging him back. I feel his grip loosen and then I see his brown eyes staring back at mine.

I feel my heart start to pound and I just break eye contact. Then I move from the hug. "Uh... I'm gonna go shower...."

"Okay...ill be on the couch." He says now flopping on the couch. I nod and now go grab some clothes and head to the bathroom. I step inside and close the door. I can feel the erection in my pants. I could take care of it while I'm in the shower but.... What if he hears me?

I takeoff my shirt and then hear a knock. I walk over and open the door. Seeing Mark just red faced. But something seems different.

I feel his grip around my waist as soon our lips intertwine. My heart jumps almost through my chest. My eyes wide and my face growing red hot. My eyes close as the kiss softens. I feel him pull me close and then slightly pushing us against his bathroom counter. I feel his right hand move around from my waist to my hips. Then to the inseam of my pants rubbing me from atop my jeans. I feel my breath quicken and my hands just stay at his shoulders now. When he backs from the kiss all of his actions just stop. He backs away his face now looking like a beaten pup.

He turns and walks out Theodore closing it and I hear him flop on the couch. I sigh and place my hand where his just was. I continue to undress as I now step into the shower.

I just lean against the wall for a moment and then grab my self playing with my hard member. As I stroke I start to think of Mark and his tight grip. His strong hands and beautiful lips. I stop dead in my tracks as I feel my head start to throb in pain. I get this sick feeling and gag a bit. I say screw it to playing an just wash my body and hair. I finish all that and then step out into the rug. I dry off an get dressed and slide my dirty clothes beside the hamper with marks clothes.

I look at myself in the mirror. I am so scrawny compared to mark. I mean I have muscles but still... I look at my eyes and notice the green tint in my left eye. I continue to stare at it as I notice the red surfacing in the blue part.

'What is going on with me?' I ask myself as I walk out and see Mark passed out on the couch. I smile and then go  sit on the recliner. I look at the clock. 12:30. Well lunch time. But I don't want to wake him, and I'm not really hungry.

I look at the movie he has playing. 'Halloween' must be some horror film. I continue to watch it, replaying what mark  did to me not even a full hour ago, why did he do that? What got into him?

I continue to go over what-ifs and the why's. But my brain can not think of any reason other than the 'I love you' thing. Even if that was the case why was he aggressive at first?

So many questions that on my own I can not answer. I sigh an look at the tv again watching this freaky movie. It's not even close to Halloween itself why the horror movie?

I move and grab the remote. I change the channel to another movie channel. Epix? I watch into the woods as I continue my thoughts. I see Mark move as he grumbles. I watch him and the movie. He looks peaceful I wonder what his dreams are about.

Maybe he isn't peaceful and he's having a nightmare..... God damn it I worry way to damn much! Is it because I care so much?

I stand and walk to the kitchen and grab the fridge handle. Then I open it and stare into the fridge. I grab something that's called a 'four Loko' it's a 14% alcoholic beverage. I crack the top and I smell it. Smells alright I guess. I start to drink it and then sit back down.