My Bello Angel got Respinto

5- I do want you but choose not to

Aldrine Gian

As soon as I was walk in back to the pack house I hear an ear piercing scream and I  instantly  run where it's coming from then I was shock to say that the pained scream comes from my lovely and beauti- Alessandra.

I notice that many pack members are in the hospital room right now all I see on their faces are shock,pained, and pity.

I growl at them so that I can comfort her and calm her down. She's crying and I know that it's  my fault. She's suffering in this misery because I put her through this. I thought it'll be good for us to be away from each other... all I want for her is to be happy, happy without me... laugh without me... smile without me... mad without me... play without me... study without me... graduate without me... fulfill her dreams without me... have a family without me... love without me... and be with someone else not me ...

In her life...

I was able to walk and sit beside her at the bed I hug her and stare at her I made sure to keep my face no emotion at all except for the emotions that I wanted her to see. I know I am being jerk  I admit it cause even though I am an Alpha I know too when I am being a jerk or not.

I feel her body calm to my touch. She stops to sob and her head turn to me, she lift her head and looks up at me I met her eyes we continue starring at each others eyes. She's shock, pained, hurt, and vulnerable at this time. After a while, her eyes are full of un sheared tears I just want to hold her.. make her mine but this isn't right, its not right.

She just cried there not bothering to make herself vulnerable or weak to the pack members, she's in pain I can't blame her though. After all... I am the one who put her here in this situation, I at least help her but I know deep down here in my heart I know that its hurt though I won't share feelings with my wolf ... NOT anymore.

I reminded myself all the things and the word I kept in my mind and heart.

I don't want a mate.

I will never care if I found her.

I will never accept her. EVER.

I will not be the one that bastard refers to when I am some love-sick pup for a mate that comes or will come to me.
AND 

I WILL NEVER EVER

LOVE HER
NOT EVEN MY WOLF CAN CONVINCE ME NOT EVEN MY SO CALLED "MATE".
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