My Bello Angel got Respinto

Yolo

Alessandra Jean

After my outburst in the pack house I ran off to our house. I just lying on my bed not carring  for school or my life cause my life sucks you know? I'm not the quite out going she-wolf that they knew. I just want to end this crap.. I haven't eaten for about 2 weeks and I'm sure as hell is skinnier than usual. My parents talking to me for the past few days last week but either I just keep my mouth shut or they'll leave me on my own. They convince me to eat every now and then even my brother Ashton keep telling me that I should get up and enjoy the life. I know that you will only live once so live the most of it though he's right I will live my life or I should say make it.

After all, I will be the rejected mate and Luna .. I will always be. I want to be strong, brave, beautiful, and worthy she-wolf worthy to die happy and free. I will do this not for me but for the sake of my family... I am not the only one whose suffering, they are too. They're curious as to why I am like this . I got this feeling  that they already know but chose not to step in my own problem because I want to be independent.
 
When I always wake up there's a longing feeling I get. Sometimes I've been woken by my own mate betrayal... Him having sex with someone who isn't his mate. I can feel it through the half broken bond even if its half I can feel the hurt fully. I sometimes hit by it full force. I just cried until I have nothing tears left to cry, not moving for two weeks. I know its not even enough for me to recover but I'm sick with my life.
I just want a simple happy life with my loveones, do I look like asking more than that? No, I'm not . . so why my life is so difficult to handle?

I have my life planned. I will leave after the breaking of the bond wholly. I will ask for the elders to do it asap. For now, I wanted to know why my own mate rejects me.

I got up wobbling on my own feet. I forgot how to walk until I got the hang of it.
I stare at my mirror in my bathroom and notice how my body is more skinnier than my old self but its nice way skinny not the bad way. I wonder why...

I just finished my bathe and change on my outfit. I decided to be more brave,hot, and cold hearted for him since I will meet him later not that he knew. Got myself a dark eyeliner and mascara some matt lipstick and I'm okay to go. I just coat my expression neutral. I will be cold when it comes to him not with my family or anyone who hasn't done anything bad.

I got down downstairs got some apple and throw my leather jacket on my shoulder . My parents are gone somewhere and Ashton is not here maybe school.

I drive my baby a Ferrari car red Ferrari sports car. I love it.

I'm off to the pack house.

When I got there all of the eyes focused to me and I know that they already know what happened last week. They held their stares with pity,confuses,curious, and love for their future Luna.

I spotted some girl, I asked her where are the elders might be and she said directions to me. She know who I am and know not to disrespect me.

When I got to the door it slammed open. I saw HIM. He's mad and I know for a fact not to annoy him more. I just move to the side so he can walk pass me. But he didn't instead he just stand there looking at me but I'm not looking at him I am looking where the elders are lookinh back at me. Just masked my scent with Ashton's. He growl then all of a sudden I am being pinned to the wall I just keep my expression I am not a weak pathetic excuse for a mate I'm stronger now.
I don't even feel the sparks just lightly not strong but its there.