EMON FF//Is Emon Real?

High hopes

Warning: Starts to get a bit smutty

As Ethan snuggled up to me, I let out a couple of quiet crys.

'What's wrong Simon? Please tell me, I care about you. So do the others' he asks while looking at my tear stained face.

'It's.. It's... It's just complicated' I mumble.

'Well I can understand complicated.. Just about' he says in an attempt to make smile, and it does work.

'Well, I'm just going to come right out and say it. I hope you wont see me any different but I'm gay' I whispered and closed my eyes so I didn't have to see Ethan's disappointment. To my surprise he squeezes me reassuringly. 'That's okay, if we're being honest, I think I'm gay too'.

Hearing that caused my heart to race, he might be gay? It might all work out for me. Although, I still had to focus hard on not getting hard down there. Having a shirtless gay man who is also your crush is hard to deny.

'You think?' I wiped my tears and rolled over to look at him.

'Well I've never tried that stuff before but being with girls don't actually turn me on' he says, with a slight shameful tone to his voice.

To my surprise, I didn't think about what I did next, I might of been because I was slightly drunk but he was slightly drunk too and probably won't remember it. I pulled him closer so our bodies were touching and I didn't care about getting a boner because of him. 'Well try this' I whisper in his ear and I kiss him on the lips. He doesn't pull away which is a good thing I suppose but he kept it going. We probably kissed for a solid 2mins. Again, to my surprise I could feel his bulge against mine. Ughh, it felt so nice yet I had to stop myself, he might not of been gay. But he was big, I could just tell.

We pulled away from this kiss and Ethan utters out one word 'wow'. He smiles and then we fall asleep cuddling each other.

I awake in the morning with a stinging head ache and to find no Ethan next to me. I sit up in bed trying to avoid the Suns gaze through my window. Every inch I sat up the worse the head ache got, I barely drank last night but even just a small amount can cause me more harm than happy.

I try to stand up but as I do I stumble and fall over causing a loud thump on the floor. I hear Josh run upstairs to see if I was okay and he helped me up and downstairs. When I go downstairs everyone else was up except Ethan wasn't there.

Before I had chance to ask any questions JJ came up to me and started jumping up and down.

'Guess what!' He shouts excitedly causing me to stumble a little bit as I was still feeling light headed 'We have decided to all chip in and buy a sidemen house, do you want to join us?' All eyes are staring at me anxiously waiting for an answer.

'Ahh, what the heck, yeah sure!' I say with a smile 'Oh yeah, where's Ethan? I ask curiously.

'I don't know, he said he had to do something but he never said what' Vikk explains.

Hearing that caused me to feel more light headed. Oh god, does he remember last night? Have I ruined my friendship with him? What are the others going to think? All these thoughts running through me head and.. And...

Next Thing I knew I had woken up in Josh's bed, I can't remember much, last thing I knew I was in the kitchen and then I passes out I guess.

'Thank lord you're okay man, you had us worried' I open my eyes to find Tobi next to me. Tobi's has seemed to be the most caring one out of us, he was always there for us even though it was over text.

'Yeah I'm good thanks, alcohol really doesn't agree with me the next day' I chuckle. He hands me some pain killers and said to just give him a shout if I need anything and to come downstairs to look at houses when I'm ready.

Ask he walks out the room I check my Twitter to see if Ethan has tweeted anything. My heart sank when I read this...

@Behzinga: I'm sorry guys, but I think I have been lying about something for a while and I need to get it off my chest.

He had posted this tweet literally just 5mins ago. I slowly but as fast as I could get out of bed and made my way to the front room. 'Have you guys seen Ethan's most recent tweet?' I ask. They all reply no.

'Holy crap what is he talking about?' Harry asked, we all eagerly stare at our phones for Ethan's Twitter to be updated.