EMON FF//Is Emon Real?

More truth

*Possible trigger warning*

I just kept on running and running, I heard JJ and Ethan running after me but I can run faster. I ran to a park which isn't far from our house. I sat on a bank and I curled up and just cried. I cried until no tears came out. I was definitely the most insecure out of the sidemen. On camera I was strong but in real life i'm not. I kept getting flashbacks to being on the floor, same position I am now, and being beaten up by more so called ex 'friends'.

Too add to my misery it had to start raining. I curled up on the wet grass bank and a cried myself to sleep in the cold. I didn't care if it was like 3pm I just wanted to escape.

'Holy fucking shit, Guys!! Guys over here! I found him!' A deep voice shouted.

I slowly started to wake up, barely able to move, I must of rolled down the bank while I was sleeping and I had landed halfway in the water.

'Guys help me now! he's freezing call an ambulance!' Tobi screamed, a tear rolling down his face. Tobi was by far one of the most caring person in the sidemen.

'Simon!' Ethan ran over to me and cuddled me in his arms, I was in so much pain but he must of been in more. he gripped my hand and I tried with all my might to give back a small but reassuring squeeze.

'I love you Ethan' I squeaked out, my vision started going and my body was stiff, I couldn't feel my body parts, only Ethans warmth.

'I love you Simon' Ethan cries.

'Holy fucking shit' Callums voice spoke. Clearly ridden with guilt.

'Fuck off you fucking prick! Get away! Don't ever come back'. Ethan shouted as the paramedics came up to me. Ethans grip loosened.

I awoke in a hospital bed, and looked about and I saw a sleeping Ethan next to me with a pale tear stained face. I slowly sit up and I lean towards Ethan. I put my hand on his lap which caused him to jump slightly.

'Simon? Oh my god, you're awake'. He lets out a weak smile and hugs me. His eyes where dark.

'I'm sorry, I didn't mean for any of this to happen. I'm sorry I caused you so much pain. I'm sorry' I cried out, pleading for forgiveness.

'Don't worry babe. I'm with you till then end, just promise me to never ever do that again. Ever. You had us all scared shitless and even the Cal's looked scared. JJ told us all what happened with them two. They're pricks.' He giggled lightly, trying to pick up the mood. I signal for him to lie on my hospital bed with me and we lie there embracing each others cuddles.

We were soon awoken by the rest of the guys plus a sort of unwanted visitor.

'Simon, I.. I... The hospital phoned her up and she came down instantly. She refuses to leave' JJ says quietly.

Next thing I knew.. 'Simon you're coming home with me. Since you've been here you've had problems. You've got a boyfriend and you nearly froze to death' My mum spoke sternly. She gave me and Ethan a look of disgust when she examined me and Ethan cuddling together.

'No Mother. You're not the boss of me, my life will be worse with you' I said with my voice raised. I was still weak from what happened.

'No, if you were with me you wouldn't of put your life in danger'She keeps a calm but angry voice.

'You were the reason I wanted to die years ago, You were the reason I attempted it'. I shouted. I don't know where I got this sudden outburst if energy but wherever it came from it managed to shut her up 'Go away mother. I never want to see you again'.

'Fine, suit yourself, I don't need you anyway, I'm moving to America with my new fiancé' She scoffed and walked out of my room.

'I'll explain it all later when we get back to the house. I promise guys. Have you told the fans what has happened?'

'We told them that you had an accident and that you were in hospital but you were recovering well' Vikk spoke.

'Thank you'.

'Mr. Minter, You are free to go home now' The nurse smiled.

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'Ahhhhhhhhh, home sweet home' I chirped, it felt good to be back, I felt strongerr than ever'.

'Babe, front room, you have to explain everything to us'. Ethan cuddled me from behind. I kissed him on the cheek and I pulled him onto my lap when we were into the front room. The other filed in.

'So... This may take some time but I just want you to know that this was the old me and I got help and I am better now, the other night may of been a small relapse but it made me realise how lucky I am to have you guys. So... When I was in secondary school I had only 2 friends before I became friends with JJ. I was really unpopular and my two friends was Callum and Cal. We had quite a good friendship and we told each other everything. That was until I had a somewhat gay experience. Thats when I discovered I was gay. Girls had tried to kiss me but it didn't feel right. Thats when I came out to my so called friends. This was in year 8 or 9. But I told them at break time out on the field. When I told them they both laughed in my face and started beating me up, I had a broken rib cage and i black eye but I told my mum and the teachers I had fallen down the hill and landed on a rock. Of course, as you would expect, it spread round my year like wildfire. I started to get depressed and sad. I would be eating alone and I would it alone in class. That was until about 3 weeks after it happened JJ came and sat with me one lunch. JJ was an introvert like me but he was a very popular one. He took me under his wing and looked after me and started to build me back up on my feet'. I spoke with a slight tear in my eye. JJ was smiling and all the others looked so shocked.

'I then decided to tell my parents. They were divorced and I lived with my dad and my brothers lived with my mum. I told my dad first and he was happy for me, I then told my brothers and they were also supportive and happy but then it came to my mum. She was very homophobic so I just came right out (no pun intended) and said I was gay. She didn't take it too well and smacked me and beat me. Just like my friends. I didn't have the heart to tell my dad so I told JJ. JJ was there for me the whole way' I looked over to him and smiled and I gave Ethan a reassuring hug.

'But with my depression and anxiety getting worse the thoughts started coming to me. I didn't harm myself at all but one night my mum had left me a sort of hate note and I tried it. I tried it but as I was halfway done my brother rushed in and saved me' I feel more and more tears stream down my face.

'So yeah, since then I have got help and I am fully better now' I smiled.

They all looked at me in awe. They seemed so shocked. I look over to JJ who has a tear in his eye, which is quite rare as JJ is very good at hiding his emotions. Ethan however, was streaming tears down his face. I look over to Harry and he keeps his hands in his head. I think he thinks he is the one responsible for what happened but he's not. It was all my fault, not him.