Best Friend

Miles Apart

Hey zee!
I hope you are feeling better! But I am not, seriously....my worst days have $ tarted I could not even imagine,
Anyhow I am here to suffer as always!
Side by side or miles apart friends are forever close to your heart.
I am trying to believe it as I am not sure now...
I'm sooooo sad that I am leaving for a month as I am not sure will I be able to talk to you daily but....I will text you always! 
I'm just.... blaming myself as I should that I didnt get you that card that day I mean how can I be such a dumb person...I am really bad and forgetful I...I...I am....such...suc...a...a....loser!  I don't really deserve you!
That hours seemed to pass so quickly before the vacations... cant believe..... time passes so quickly when you want it to stop forever and move slowly! *hopeless*
Zeeee I misss you each and every moment thats the reason I just wrote these above things! I was so filled up from days that these things were just revolving in my mind so I wrote down here to get some peace of mind and you know im so much hurt or what you say alone feeling alone basically idk its my fault or its really like that as I nowadays really gets tears in my eyes so quickly even if its the smallest tiniest matter or just a thought my eyes fill with tears even its about you or notWHAT OTHER THING I SHALL TELL YOU,! I was never  like this....

I thought maybe meeting you for a few hours in person wont mind or would made me feel better would wash away my sarcastic silly crazy hopeless thoughts!  But....nature decided to hurt me more! HURT HURT HURT AND HATRED  I have totally lost it!  "CARE CARE CARE AND LOVED "  was my previous statement but eventually now its like "hurt hurt hurt and hatred" what can anybody else do.... its my fault I need to sort out this first.

When I texted you in the evening I was alk hearts and flowers girl #cheerful #happy #hopeful #trust #loyal am still #excited
But.....after your deathly reply I was like  no no no it must be a joke she cant she cant offend me thats why I didnt replied cuz I wanted to see how or what move are you gonna take next ofcouese bffs wont challenge each other but idk I told na that I was tita) ly lost  sorry sorry sorry but im lotal and truthfuk neede to tell ya how I felt no lies so I didnt replied got myself busy in things to not think but as I am it made me think more and finally mama asked me and I deleted your reoly messages that said no she asked I didnt offend you I told her that you haven't replied and I will ask you again she was Ok but asked again I avoided her that time sorry  and then I came back to my normal self I was like no hiw can I be so selfish shes my bestie ofcourse she wouldn't have wanted to offend me and she told the truth didnt hunged me up so I thought to leave it and some part of me said that try talk to her thers hope and I will try to my best I'm telling you even if u dont I will
I thought and thought I was normal but memory of you n I was filled with tears and tired! Ofcourse its gonna be a long day tomorrow as I have to convince her momma :/ :) and persuade her too....

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This was it my whole innerself today! Really really exhausted and confused!

Didnt meant to offend you @Izna_Awais
Wanted to tell my feelings then and now
I love ya and miss you take care Nature is nature huh *sighs*

A bit relaxed after writhing this maybe a more after...........

Bye..... :/ *_* ;) :) 8_8 0_0
Lots of love and luck
Yours kay
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HOPE IT RENAINS LIKE THIS!