Written Audios

I'm Not Nobody

Hey there.
I umm.... I really don't know where to start.
But ummm.
I guess I should start.
With this.... You sit here and tell me that nobody wants you... But I don't understand where you're coming from by that.
I don't see where I became nobody.
I mean.... In my eyes I'm somebody.
In my eyes I'm somebody important and my opinion matters.
But I am pretty stupid.
But I'm definitely not nobody.
So when you tell me nobody wants you....That hurts. Because I don't see how you can say that when there's someone fighting for you. Every day.
Right in front of you. Because they care about you. So if you can't hear me when I tell you that you matter. Maybe now you will hear me.
I am NOT no one so do NOT say nobody wants you because I want you.
And I fight for you every day.
I think about you every day I wonder how you're doing because I, I can't be there with you all the time.
But that doesn't mean I'm nobody.
Because I care.
And you know what.
The person who says nobody cares about them is usually the person that has the most people caring for them. So....yeah that's the person I've been fighting for, the person who says that nobody cares about them when someone does.
And you know, I'm cool with that.
But there is a line that when you cross it.
You know, that.....that really hurts.
You told me Nobody wanted you.
OK, we got that.
But then you have the nerve to tell me there is no such thing as happiness or love. Right there.
I know that is a lie, you tell me that happiness and love is a lie and that it's all just fairytales and stories and it's a lie like all of that.
Right now you're lying to me when you say that because, I know happiness, I know love.
You do to.
But you're too blind to see it. OK, does it sound like I'm being really harsh right now. Yeah that's called tough love.
LOVE!
LOVE!
Get it through your head that it is real.
And it is right in front of you.
You know, I smile every day, and if you really know me, you might find that hypocritical but I smile every day because I find something to be happy about.
EVERYDAY!
Even when it's the worst day on earth somebody makes me smile, even if it has no relation to me, you know why?
I recognize happiness.
I understand it.
I cherish it.
I believe in it, but somethings happened along the way and you no longer see it's possibility.
You say it's a lie like fairytales, fairytales are not lies.
They're, they're supposed to inspire.
You know, you look at this character, you see them going through this situation that seems almost totally impossible.
You know, no human could ever get through that.
But you see them preserve. You see them go through this and you see them holding their head high even when they fall they get back up.
And then you see them end something.
You know, there's good that comes out of what they just went through.
They're supposed to tell you. That you should just keep going because there's good moments that happen.
And no matter who you are you're going to have a good moment in your life.
So don't close the book before you've even gotten to the climax.
So don't tell me there are no happy ending's because you're not God you cannot read the end of your book. You can't read the last page. But if you do close the book and if you do stop writing it. I will pick your book up in hand with mine and I will write yours and mine at the same time and I will think about closing mine, about closing yours, about closing them both because it's hard to write two books at once. But Guess what, life is hard! Writing your book of life is going to be difficult.
And if I am sitting here willing to pick up your book of life and write it even after you're done with it.
Then my goodness you had best better open your eyes because only a blind person doesn't see what's in front of them and if you can't see there is somebody so willing to do anything for you because they....they CARE ABOUT YOU AND ARE HAPPY AND THEY WANT YOU TO BE HAPPY AND THEY LOVE YOU.
I JUST.......cuz,cuz here's the thing. There are happy endings and I've seen them. There is love because I've seen it, I felt it, and I've experienced it.
And part of love, part of happiness is pain because if you experience pain when you're happy you know  your happy.
When you're in love you know you're in love YOU KNOW.
Don't tell me it's a lie, don't try and bring me down with you because I am not bringing, I'm not bringing myself down and I'm not going to let you bring yourself down either.
I will pick you up and I will carry you so help me.
Even after you're dead.
I will fight for you.
I'll fight for your memory because guess what everything you do is etched in time.
You can't get rid of it. So ending your life, ending your book is not worth it.
So don't say you're not wanted when somebody wants you, and that's me that's what I'll do.