I hit month 2. I just seem to be getting worse. It started with depression. Then my mom found me cutting. She won't let me within 14 feet of anything sharp. She says I can't be harming myself, I'm pregnant and that it's not good for the child. I've been talking to the boys but none of them know about the depression yet. I don't want them to either.
I've also been thinking. I'm going to need to name the baby. I can't just put a child up for adoption if it has not name. And what if it grows up wanting to know it's real mother? I mean I can tell the new parents that I want it to think I died. But that would be horrible. If he or she found out I wasn't really dead, then it would hate it's parents and grow up like me, hating life. So I can't do that. I don't know what to do.
Group chat**
Raven: guys I need your help.
Luke: with what
Ashton: what'd'ya need kid?
Michael: what
Calum: anything.
Raven: I need names for the child.
Calum: how about Calum Jr
Luke: no Lucas jr
Michael: I disagree, it should be Mikey or Makayla
Ashton: Ashton or Ashley.
Raven: srsly guys. no.
Luke: damn
Raven: think people think!
Ashton: what about Savannah
Michael: jared or jasmine
Luke: hmmmm, Haylee?
Calum: Carter, or Logan. Unisex names :)
Raven: I like them all, we should just name it Savannah Jared Jasmine Haylee Carter Logan.
Luke: that's wayy to long to put on that tiny name line
Raven: what about Savannah Haylee or Jasmine Haylee
Michael: Riley Rosemary
Raven: I like that. Ryleigh Rosemary.
Raven: okay so Ryleigh Rosemary if it's a girl. And now we need a boy name.
Calum: Logan
Raven: I like that too. Logan. We need a middle name.
Raven: Logan Ares. It's settled. Ryleigh Rosemary if it's a girl and Logan Ares if it's a boy
I constantly pretend like I'm happy when I talk to them. But the truth is: I'm not.
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Raven is a die hard fangirl who'd do anything for that 5sauce follow.
