The Nightmare and The Voices

Chapter 1: The Demon Inside

It happened again. I can feel my eyes shut tightly while the gentle tears fall down my left cheek, and then to my right cheek, and down to my neck. The tears felt gentle yet rough like a broken rock rubbing against my cheeks. I can feel my face burning up, the sweat on my forehead and on my back building up. The sweat also ran down from my forehead to my neck leaving my white t-shirt wet. "I want to wake up," I yelled at least I think I yelled. I have this dream every single night yet .....I don't remember a thing when I wake up. I'm not even able to recall the smallest fragments of the dream. But was it all just a dream or my reality? The mind has its own sick twisted ways to scare you; dreams represent your hopes, desires, and your fears. Yet, "I WANT TO WAKE UP", I screamed at the top of my lungs repeatedly.Then I heard heavy yet rapid footsteps on the staircase.

"JACK, JACK, JACK",my mom yelled worriedly with fear in her voice. I could feel her tightly embracing me as her tears fall down on my right shoulder. "It's okay, it's going to be okay... I'm here now",I heard her whispering. I still had my eyes shut tightly while still yelling "I WANT TO WAKE UP."After a couple of minutes I woke up and sat up on the bed. I started to yawn and gently rub my eyes as I'm trying to wake up.

I started to feel my face burning like the sun on a hot day. My shirt is wet and covered with my sweat and tears. My face feels stiff probably from crying I supposed. I can feel the intense bags under  my eyes, the sadness and fear of my tears that passed by."Mom are you okay, what's happening and why are you crying",I asked softly with a sleepy voice. My mom looks at me with her warm gentle light brown eyes and says "Oh it's nothing, I just hate to see you grow up so fast my little Jacky ." "Mom I'm not a baby any more I'm thirteen", I chuckled and try to make sure she was okay. By the look on her face I could tell I had that same nightmare again, I'm never fully aware I'm having it because it feels so real. I don't even realize I have it until I wake up with her crying and hugging me tightly. After 10 minutes of trying to calm me down  my mom leaves and says "Good night, get some rest Jack." Each and every time she leaves the room I feel the need to cry. I feel the need  to cry because she has to deal with my idiotic nightmares every god dam night...and I'm not even aware of them until after it happens.

"HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHA we scared her real good didn't we Jacky boy?" said the voice in my head.
"Hey it's not nice to scare mom like that", said the second voice in my head.
"Get out of my head. Get out, get out ,leave me alone ... I- I want to feel normal", I whispered softly yet with shaking fear in my voice.
"Hehehe... HAHAHAHAHA you think we're gonna leave you ALONE? Do you know who I am JACK ?!?! I'm YOU, I'm the DARKEST part of YOU, I'M THE DEVIL HIMSELF. I AM DEATH!" said the first voice.
"Get out, leave me alone", I said in a trembling low tone hoping to not wake up my mom again. "Death that's enough let's leave him alone", said the second voice.
" Awwwwww but why? The fun has only just begun, but we will be back", said Death.
I cried after Death said "we will be back", I don't want to feel like this anymore. I don't want to be afraid every time I go to bed ...I-I want to be and feel normal. I don't want to wake up covered in my own sweat and tears.

I take out my sleeping pills from under my pillow, this time I'm going to take the strong dosage sleeping pills. I reach out  for the glass of water that lays beside my bed, I start to drink the water and swallow the pill. I can feel my eyes get heavier and heavier until finally I fall asleep.