Angel Eyes.

Smile, You are happy. not sad.

She hates me. There is nothing I can do. I'm not even dating anyone, why did she automatically think I was? Fuck, Chris. Me and him flirt all he time on stage for the fans! It does not mean we are together!! This is all my fault. Everything is my fault, maria hating me, fans not liking the band because of my horrible voice, and...and her suicide. Her suicide was all my fault, her mother even said so.

(Flashback)

"Babe guess what?" She texted me at almost 3am what does she want ugh. "Whattt" I'm tired as fuck "I'm coming to phli" NO WAY. "OH MY GOD TARYN WHEN?!" I had to call her now, I was fully awake. "Well I got my license renewed and I'm going to drive there tonight! I am actually just about to leave now so I can see you tomorrow morning!" I'm so excited holy shit. "Oh my god I can't wait to see you! Well I won't keep you long you have some serious driving to do! I love you soo much. Be safe dear." And in that moment she hung up the phone. I was so excited to see her for the first time. Through everything she has gone threw she still is able to love, its amazing. For example, she has been raped and beaten more times to count. She has dealt with self harm and hospitals in the past and I'm so proud of her for holding on. (Next morning) She texted me to go to the dam she told me about awhile back. When I got there I didn't see her anywhere but I looked and walked around and she was playing by the water. I could hear her humming angel eyes to herself. She looked up and almost fell because she hadn't heard me coming. "Ash, you're even more beautiful in real life!" She attacked me with kisses and I returned the favor. I love this girl so much. She let go and sat by the dam edge. She patted next her for me to take a seat. "I love you." She started crying and I was starting to freak out. "I love you to!" I started rubbing her back. She stood up so fast my hand flew back. She handed me a folded piece of paper and before I could open it. She jumped off the dam, in front of me.

(End of flashback)

I will never forget that day because it was my fault along with everything else. Why cant I do anything right?! I heard the bus door open and I tired so fast to get myself together but I wasn't fast enough to clear my tear stained eyes. Who walked in I would have never expected.