You Didn't Even Try

Friends

Friends everyone has them, well I don't have friends I have a friend.
My friend's name is Erica. To say the least I had a crush on her.
Everything with us was going well until once when she was at my house and saw my YouTube watch history and a bunch of those things laying on my dresser.
"I didn't do anything please Erica please believe me!"
She didn't, she stormed out of my room and house and went home....
When I tried to text her she never responded. The next day at school I tried talking to her but she walked away... I was lonely.. I'm used to feeling this but not from her.
When I got home I looked at my dresser and grabbed the razor. I broke it so I could get a blade and I started to cut.
The next day and Erica saw me she asked what happened I said it was the cat. The cat. That is so funny the cat never scratched me this much. She believed me but said I couldn't be her friend.
This.. This was devastating.... I went home and took a bottle of whisky from the cabinet. One wouldn't matter my mom has so much. I drink a fourth of the bottle and woke up with a major migraine so I took some Advil and went back to school, sitting all alone with no friends and not even a school counselor....
This continued on for months...