Poems From Within

My Tears

Tears of anger is what I feel right now.

I cry when I'm happy.

I cry when I'm sad.

I also cry when I'm mad.

I try to keep control I really do.

They don't know I restrain myself from causing pain to others and myself.

I am slowly breaking I cant take it no longer.

One day  will crack and they will never see me again.

I'm trying lord knows I am trying to hold on and be strong.

I love them but sometimes words hurt I try to show as least emotions as I can.

Slowly but surely I am breaking and I will continue to break if I am not repaired.

I want to be smart like the others but I do my best but they want more.

I don't know if I can give them more.

But I try I wonder if anyone can see beyond my smile.

All I want to do is cause joy to others I try as hard as I can.

But you know what sometimes trying isn't good enough.

So I must go beyond my limits even if it breaks me.

Even if I want to end it all I will fight to another day.

Because most days I'm happy I'm still here.

I have low self esteem.

I have feelings.

I have hopes and dreams.

And they are all followed by tears.

I'm weird because I cry for you.