~Diary of Wolstar~

Chapter 7

"If you are never

scared, embarrassed, or hurt,

it means you never take chances." ~Julia Soul

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(When James, Lily, and Peter came through the doors)

They burst through the doors and my heart jolted.

"We'll just...." Lily said and rushed James and Peter out of the room. My eyes pricked with tears, threatening to pour.

"Why did we almost do that?" I whispered.

"I-" Sirius started but swallowed whatever he was going to say. Instead he finished with, "-don't know."

"Then, then get out." I said my heart pounding.

"But-" Sirius started

"Get. Out."

"Remus, I-"

"YOU'VE CAUSED ME ENOUGH EMBARRASSMENT, NOT TO MENTION YOU DON'T KNOW WHY, SO JUST GET THE BLOODY HELL AWAY FROM ME!" I exploded.

Sirius opened his mouth but no words came out, which shocked me. Instead he let out a whimper and started sobbing out the door. My heart dropped to my stomach, burning in the acids. Why did I yell at him? He saved my fucking life! And this is how I treat him? I immediately got up from the bed, crying, and started to chase Sirius.

I could see a flash of red hair running after Sirius as well but she was too far ahead of me and I cared more about reaching Sirius. Every step I took, I fell deeper into shame, not from embarrassment, but for causing pain to Sirius.

I saw the Fat Lady painting almost slam closed but I stopped it just in time, and walked into the common room. Everyone was racing to the boys dorm and I assumed Sirius was there too. I stumbled up the stairs, trying to get up them as quick as I could, and I saw a limp Sirius crying into his pillow with James comforting him. Lily and Peter stared daggers at me and at first, I was unsure about getting near Sirius. But my heart urged the rest of my body to go to Sirius. I sat next to Sirius and James shot me a venomous look but realized I found my mistake and scooted off the bed.

"Siri?" I said quietly. Sirius jumped slightly and then simply mumbled, "Don't call me that."

"C'mon guys," Lily whispered and once again, got James and Peter out of the room. I rubbed Sirius's back softly while he just sniffled into the pillow.

"I'm s-so sorry," I said, my eyes welling up with tears. "You saved my life, my useless life and-"

"Your life is not useless. Don't ever say that again." Sirius said sternly, sitting up. "You are amazing and-"

"You deserve more than me-"

"No you deserve more than me-"

"Why did you let me live?"

"Because I can't live without you."

And when Sirius said that, my heart took over my body and my lips crashed into Sirius's. Sirius took it by surprise at first, but than started kissing me back. It lasted for a while, though I'm not quite sure how long. Lily poked her head through the door and smiled. A few seconds later, James did the same. I grinned. This was definitely worth living for.

(A/N) So, what do you guys think? Little sappy but I think I did a good job today. Happy Birthday to my sister! Big 3 years old!!! Comment 'bout how you think this chapter went! Thanks to all the Willetts!!! <3 <3 <3