i look through the files of the current patients in the ward i was in.
i tried hard to remember his face but it's slowing fading from my memory. but the face i picture wasn't anywhere on the files.
i ask the receptionist if i can see another file of patients from this ward.
"there's that, the one you just looked through and the deceased."
i hoped he wasn't on there. i hoped he was at least in a different ward. anything but dead.
she passed me the deceased files.
