Typical Lies

The day I met him

    Laying down on my pink and white poka dot towel next to my favorite person just made me feel amazing. Like no one could ever make me feel like this. We havent been together for a while, only a few months. When i met Josh i was still together with my ex boyfriend at the time. His name is Mark. Generic name i know.. he went by his middle name though. His first name is Kyler. I dont understand why he didnt like his first name... Maybe he was following his brother.. his brothers first name is Raymond, But he went by his middle also which was Tanner. Marks dad passed away during the time that me and him were together. I remember that day perfectly. I still can't forgot it, even though i try so hard to get rid of the memories i just cant. I remember how i met Josh the day seemed so perfect. I was at the mall with my bestfriend Annebeth. Her and i were walking throught the foodcourt when i get this tap on the shoulder. It was this boy who was a little bit taller then i was he smiled and said " Aye you cute" Me and my friend laughed at him. But he manged to make an impression on me. I got his number. I didnt want to text him only because i thought it wasnt fair for my boyfriend at the time. But my boyfriend was in the middle of ignoring me. So i took the shot. I never regret doing it too. Me and Mark at the time was like fire vs fire. We were always at each others throats. So months later i decided to end it with Mark i couldnt handle being the way i was. I felt so much better to get out of that toxic relationship. 

Three days later i went on a date with Josh.  

Things were great im guessing you could say.

We took sharpies and vandalised the malls third floor just for a thrill.

But yet i couldnt even look at him in the eyes.

I guess i was afraid of him.

Afraid of getting hurt again.

You can thank mark for that one.

I got a phone call from my parents freaking out where i was..

I gave Josh a hug and we walked downstairs.

It was clear.

in that moment.

i couldnt understnad it then but now i do.

We made a spark.

We kissed.

And i will never forget it.

but i kept a thought in the back of my head.

What the actual fuck am i getting into?