Phil
I was still on my bed, pondering where me Dan stood now when my phone made a pleasant dinging sound. I sat up and checked my messages.
Dan🐻: hey u awake?
Why wouldn't I be awake...I thought checking the time. It was 1:26. That explains that.
Phil🌞: yeah, why? Wanna talk?
Dan🐻: no, I just messaged u to waste energy.
Phil🌞: sarcastic as ever. Watcha wanna talk about?
Dan🐻: do u think im a coward?
Phil🌞: what?
Phil🌞: no why?
Dan🐻: I don't talk to people, im insecure, I didn't save my sister, the list goes on and on.
Phil🌞: a. Everyone is afraid of being judged.
b. Everyone sees more flaws in themselves than anybody sees in them
c. U couldn't have known it was that extreme, she made her choice, I'm sure she wouldn't want u to blame urself.
Dan🐻: a. Ur wrong, but thanks
b. I hate it when people do this letter thing
c. I'm doing this despite reason b, I'm such a hypocrite.
Phil🌞: Ur welcome. No go to sleep. U can't meet my friends looking like a freaking zombie.
Dan🐻: goodnight mother. And the term is fucking
Phil🌞: I don't swear Danny.
Dan🐻: I hate that name Philly.
Phil🌞: well I hate the nickname Philly, so guess we're even?
Dan🐻: for now...
Phil🌞: goodnight
Dan🐻: goodnight
I sighed wondering why Dan felt guilty about his sister's suicide. I guess I would feel somewhat responsible in his situation, but he completely responsible. It was her decision, a terrible mistake. Dan shouldn't feel responsible.
Dan
Phil doesn't understand. He said everyone was scared of judgement, and were insecure, but I didn't think so. Or at least not as bad as me.
Let's use Phil as an example. He has a small group of friends. I don't. He seems so confident about himself and simply perfect. I obviously don't.
Because you don't have any good traits.
Yeah I do.
Then why don't you have any friends?
I have Phil, and tomorrow he's letting me sit with him and his friends at lunch...
He's probably using you. Once he's done with you, he'll drop you faster than you can say betrayal.
You're lying.
Now, why would I lie to you?
A/N- ok, first I'm gonna get totally off topic. Does A/N stand for author's note?
And second, I'm so sorry my chapters are short and shitty. Hopefully I'll get better as I keep writing.
THE MORE YOU GUYS COMMENT, THE FASTER I UPDATE cause I only check Wattpad to read or check comments.
Ily, bye
