I know no one reads this shit but it's a way for me to kinda just let things off my chest so yeah.
Okay so I was the lead in my play, I played Tracy Turnblad. Today is June 5th 2k16. Opening night way May 5th 2k16. You may think I should be over the play. It's history. But I'm not. I'm not over the play. Here's why.
I'm still getting over Hairspray ending and most of the cast is over it already. I won't "be over" Hairspray for a long time, and I didn't know why I was so depressed because Hairspray ending, until a couple days ago. Hairspray made me feel like I was worth something. It made me feel talented, it made me feel like I was actually important. Now that it's over I feel empty almost. I made so many friends and I love all of them. Hairspray was more than just a school play. Hairspray was my coping mechanism. It helped me through my depression, it helped me through my anxiety, now it's gone. I became so close with so many people, Bree, Amelia, Andy, and so many other people and now I barley see them. I just feel so unimportant now. Like I'm not Tracy anymore, Now I'm just Me.
