Ship: Shaylor
Shawns POV:
"Was that all I was to you a stupid dare were these three years just a fucking dare Taylor" I exclaim biting my lip right after to keep myself from bursting into tears in front of all of his friends "Shawn I'm sorry but I love you that's why I told you" Taylor says walking closer to me he gently grabs my hand making me snatch it away from him quickly "don't fucking touch me" I say anger over powering me
"Your such a fucking asshole why would you make me believe that you actually loved me Taylor why did you have to make me fall in love with you" I exclaim feeling even more tears form in my eyes "I do fucking love you Shawn it was a dare at first but then I actually fell for you " he says his voice becoming more quiet by the end of his sentence his shoulders slump forward as he looks down at the floor
I could feel the stares of all of his friends that were sitting on his couch "I fell in love even if I didn't want to I fell in love with your beautiful smile your soft brown hair the way your eyes sparkle when you watch Harry Potter I fell in love with your lazy eye and the small scar on your left cheek I fell in laugh with your laugh your voice the way you walk I fell in love with everything about you Shawn and I'm so fucking sorry for not telling you earlier" he says walking closer to me
I stay quiet not being blue to say anything or I would be in tears "please baby please forgive me" he says looking up at me his eyes full of hope those stupid brown eyes that I fell in love with but you know what they say don't let yourself be played
I look at him the stares of the people that had been there for me when I didn't have anyone burning into my back as I stared at the only person that I loved so I did what any sensible person would do and raise my hand letting it connect harshly with his cheek I hear gasps fill the room as Taylor stumbles back
He looks at me tears in his eyes once he saw the look of hatred on my face "I fucking hate you" I say before turning around sprinting out of the house as the door closed I could hear Taylor let out a loud sob making my heart ache but I refused to turn back I refused to be a little game to him I refused to be played
My heart ached along with my head as I entered my house "hey Shawn" my dad greets me as I walk in i ignore him running upstairs into my room once I lock and shut my door I throw myself on to my bed letting out loud sobs into my pillow tears were spilling down my cheeks making my pillow wet I stay like that for a couple minutes until my loud sobs turn into sniffles and whimpers
It hadn't even been an hour and I already missed him I missed him so fucking much but I refused to be a game I stand up slipping off my shirts putting on one of the hoodies that Taylor had left here before falling back on to my bed putting in my head phones and closing my eyes
*6 weeks later*
I still laid in bed refusing to get up I had gotten skinnier which wasn't that bad of a thing my heart still hurt and ached "Shawn get down here" I hear the loud voice belonging to my mum scream loudly I groan pausing the movie I was watching pulling the blanket off of me Taylor's sweater fitting me even bigger then before
I walked downstairs slowly getting dizzy looking down the stairs once I get downstairs I see him standing there in the middle of my living room he looked almost as bad as I did his eyes were bloodshot and there were huge bags under his eyes there was also big bruises and scratches on his face meaning he probably had gotten into his habit of fighting again "talk" my mum says before walking into the kitchen
"Why are you here" I say a wave of sadness washing over my body "I missed you" he says quietly as he took in my appearance "well you should of thought about that before you played me" I say angrily "Shawn please I already told you that I really do love you " he says tears forming in his eyes
"I love you to" I say his lips curve into a smile "but some stories just don't have happy endings " I say sadly before running back upstairs locking my door letting my back slide against the door as more tears fell
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