Romany
47.12
That's another goal weight hit, but it's not good enough, I have to get to 37.12, I have to get there and then I'll stop, I'd have a BMI of 11. Demi held me as I cried and it felt good, I felt cared for, almost as if I were back in dads arms, she felt like the big sister Elsie really wasn't. She calmed me down and then carried me back to my room, which was kind of hard as she had to drag the pole with the IV and the oxygen on it. When I got back there was another bed that Will was on, Elsie and Emerson were over there hovering over him. Demi placed me back on my bed and started to run her fingers through my hair
'I'm sorry' I said whilst grabbing her hand that wasn't running through my hair
'For what Roms?' she asked
'for everything, for making you come to the house and dragging you into this mess and for making you come with me and witness that mess' she shook her head
'hey, you shouldn't be sorry for that, you were in serious danger' she said 'and it's okay, we all break sometimes, just know I'm here if you want to talk about anything' I nodded and opened my arms for a hug which she gladly gave me
'I just don't like being weighed, I've always been a little underweight and I feel like people are going to make assumptions' I said hoping it would throw her suspicions away
'I get that, people suck sometimes' I giggled and nodded, her phrase reminded me of what dad used to say when kids were mean to me
William was discharged not long after but they wanted to keep me in for observation, without a second look Elsie left with William and Emerson and Eden not even bothering to tell me what time she'll be back tomorrow, I guess I know who I am to them then, their unwanted half-sister. Demi looked at me sadly and rubbed circles into the back of my hand with her thumb
bastard child.
'You okay Roms?' She asked whilst frowning at my sisters actions
'I'm fine, I'm used to it' I said trying to convince myself more than her, she just shook her head
'You shouldn't be used to it Romany, that's not okay' I just shrugged, whilst the tears I had been fighting started to fall freely, Demi looked at me sympathetically
'How about it's just you and I tomorrow hun? Mom will surely watch over Emerson as well and Elsie can do whatever the fuck she wants because that's what it seems like she does anyways' I nodded, I liked that idea
The evil nurse walked in with another person, she looked at Demi and shooed her out of the room. I didn't want her to leave, I didn't want to be in the hospital alone
'Demi, please stay' The nurse shook her head at Demi
'I'll be just outside Roms, I won't leave I promise' I nodded and she walked out of the room closing the door behind her
'Okay Romany, this is Jannet Britches, she's the hospital psychologist and she's going to ask you a few questions' The evil nurse then left me with the evil psychologist
'Romany, why do you think I'm here?' she asked
'fuck if I know' I said just wanting her to leave, I wasn't sick, I didn't need a psychologist
'what happened earlier on the scale?' I rolled my eyes
'I don't know, you tell me' I replied sarcastically
'I heard you were quite anxious about stepping on the scale and when you did it read 47.12' I shrugged
'There's nothing wrong with that'
'Romany, you weigh 47.12 pounds! That's insane, you're in danger zone'
'fuck off, I've always been skinny' I really wanted to hit this bitch
'Romany, you are sick, how many meals do you eat a day?'
'fuck off" I yelled
'Romany, how many meals do you eat a day?'
'I said fuck off!' I screamed throwing my fist into the bed, Demi ran in and could obviously see that I was uncomfortable
'You should leave' Demi said
'Miss Lovato with all due respect you don't understand what I'm try-'
'leave now, you are making her uncomfortable' Demi said more firmly cutting off the psychologist
The psychologist walked out of the room and Demi returned to where she was, I smiled at her and she smiled back at me. I was so glad that Demi was still here, I honestly was terrified, I just wanted to go home.
'Thank you' I said to Demi reaching for her hand, she took my hand in hers
'It's okay Rom' she smiled and rubbed my hand
'Your hands are freezing babe, you feeling okay?' I nodded and she raised her eyebrows at me
'my hands are always cold, it's just how they've been for a while' I shrugged off, she rubbed my hands again
My eyes slowly started to drop as I started to get tired, Demi noticed and ran her hands through my hair
'You can sleep if you want Rom, I'll still be here' I scooted over in the bed it was actually quite big and opened my eyes again
'I'm not letting you sleep in a chair Demi, here' I motioned to the big amount of space I had made
'Rom no, you need the sleep more than I do' I glared at her and she laid down next to me.
'Demi?' she hummed in response, 'What do you think of Lilly Davies?' I was hesitant to ask, but I wanted to know more about my sister
'I absolutely adore Lil, she's such a kind soul' Demi smiled, 'why?'
'I just like her' I shrugged
'I'll introduce you one day if you want' Demi's phone buzzed, 'oh, speaking of Lil, she's calling me' Demi picked up and put her phone on speaker
Hey Dems, is everything alright? I just saw a shot of you outside children's hospital
'Everything's all good Lils! Just here with my favorite fourteen year old' She smiled at me, 'who happens to be a big fan of yours' Demi nudged me. This was my chance to talk to my older sister without her knowing who it was
'Hi' I giggled shyly
Aw hi cutie
I held my breath for a moment before blurting out, 'I love you' it was true, I loved her so much, but I was too scared to tell her as Romany
You're too cute, I love you too
'Nawww' Demi gushed, making me lightly hit her arm and roll my eyes
I gotta go Dems, we still on for coffee tomorrow?
'fuck' Demi cursed, 'I'm taking Ro out tomorrow, unless she doesn't mind tagging along to our coffee date' I shrugged
'Yeah, we're still on, see you tomorrow'
byeee
Lilly dragged out the E before telling us she loved us and hanging up. What did I just get myself into.
I couldn't think about it too much, so I put my head back down and closed my eyes letting myself fall asleep.
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I woke up practically laying on Demi, and she woke up too. I quickly moved off of her and she pulled me back
'You're warm, stay' she mumbled obviously half asleep, I did enjoy her warmth but it felt awkward as she is my teacher, but I guess she's just Demi now
'Okay'
