ephemeral | chanyeol「✓」

nine

october seven, two thousand and fifteen

You still haven't showed up at school and everyone's been worried sick about you.

But when I went home today, I saw you staring out into distance in front of my house. Your face was dark, there was no light and your eyes seemed lifeless. You seemed lifeless.

"What happened?" my mind wondered.

But then when your eyes found mine, you came approaching me and suddenly your face brightened up as you smiled. And it seemed like a genuine smile. The kind of smile you would pull when you saw the first snow in the winter, a shaft of sunlight in the morning.

You took my hand and led me to our tree house. I couldn't help but smile. There were sparks inside of me and I really really wanted to hug you.

We climbed into what used to be our tree house. When we reached the-now-not-so-spacious tree house, we sat and stayed silent.

You stared at me and I could feel my heart leaped. "My mom- The doctor said she has cancer, and he also said that she could only live for a few weeks. And she doesn't want to take any kinds of treatment, she wants to live the rest of her countable life at home," you said to me breaking the silence that enveloped us, and as soon as you said the words I could feel my heart fell.

I caught the hollowness in your tone. There was no trace of sadness nor disappointment. But I know you Chanyeol, you're the greatest at hiding your feelings. I know deep down, you love your mother so much that you would do anything for her, anything to make her happy.

You turned to me and spoke again. "In a few weeks or maybe days, I'll be motherless, Mimi." Now your voice was filled with sorrow, and I could see it in your eyes also.

I gestured my hand to say that I was sorry. Because I knew, if there's anyone in the world that you love sincerely and wholeheartedly, it would be your mom.

You just nodded, and I gestured again to ask you if that wass the reason for your absence in school for weeks. And then you answered with a nod.

"I'm sorry," I gestured with my hands again.

And suddenly, you embraced me into a hug. And then you started to cry. You cried in my embracement, Chanyeol. And somehow your sorrow was contagious that I started to cry too.

Love,
Chanmi