ephemeral | chanyeol「✓」

thirteen

november eleven, two thousand and fifteen

I went to your funeral yesterday, Chanyeol. And I'm so sorry that I didn't give you my eulogy. I didn't even know how eulogy works for a mute person.

The moment I acknowledged your death, I couldn't feel my limb, I couldn't even cry. But yesterday, I sobbed, and sobbed.

I even stayed, when everyone's gone.

I shouldn't let myself gave you every piece of my heart. And now that you're gone, I'm sure that there's no pieces left for me to give it to someone else for I gave you the whole of it.

But before your father left, he gave me a piece of paper. He told me that it belongs to me, that you wrote it for me. So I read it, I read it next to your grave, next to you. And cried at the handwritten note you wrote for me.

Love,
Chanmi