spark

part three

sienna.
the director gave me instructions as i shot my final scene that didn't have like in it. i peeked over, and luke was watching me in awe, next to him, calum was also watching, with his peroxide haired girl complaining about something yet again. he half looked pained and half distracted, apparently by me.
the director yelled cut and called luke over, this was our final scene of the shoot. it had given me a chance to see who luke really was, and he was everything i expected him to be, sweet, telling me i looked stunning every ten minutes, funny and jokey, poking me everytime i was supposed to be serious and listening, and most of all, so genuine. he is amazing.

he waltzed over to me and hugged me from behind, only to poke me on the shoulder and giggle. the director gave him a look and carried on explaining our scene. we were supposed to walk towards each other, and kiss.
wait.
...
kiss?
oh my god.

i swallowed nervously and looked towards luke, who looked so much more nervous than me. he looked like he was about to explode with nerves. 

we'd done scenes where we had been close to kissing...so how hard can it be?

luke.

oh my god. we had to kiss.

one half of me was shaking and there was a lump in my throat. but the other half was exploding with fireworks of excitement and happiness, because i really really really like her. she was looking at me and i could see the nervousness in her eyes. i lost my senses for a moment and i grabbed her hand and squeezed it lightly, the nervous tension was instantly relaxed as she smiled softly at me. we nodded at the director, 

"fabulous!" he yells and claps his hands twice.  he adjusts his black leather cap and turns on his heel to go and sit on his directors chair. he gestures for us to walk to the set and ushers everyone else out with two simple movements of his hands. now that was talent. calum was the last to walk out , blatantly staring at sienna. it angered me to see him looking at her like that, but he's my best friend and we're in a band. so i couldnt get angry or confront him because he would get defensive and then the whole bands schedule would be put on pause because he would refuse to do anything.

I chose to just ignore him and focus on sienna.

she was stood at the other end of set with her glam team touching up her hair, she didnt even need a glam team, she was effortlessly flawless on her own. the director yelled those famous words 

"quiet on set!" 

and everyone rushed to their posts. sienna looked ready and i was a mess of nerves. she was so professional, it didn't even make any sense, my head had been messed up by calums actions. he clearly liked her, and he knew i liked her much more. he's so much more likeable than me, what if he's using it against me?

all these thoughts continued buzzing around my head, when they were interrupted by the director yelling action. and before i knew it the love of my life was walking towards me and we were about to kiss, a situation i had marveled in my head and never thought would happen. but it was. right now.

the last bars of outer space rung in my ears as sienna became inches away from my face,  i could feel her cool breath on my cheekbones.

i'll give you 

she leaned in even further and lifted her back hand up to rest it on my cheek.

anything... 

the last piano note of outer space rang out throughout the set as our lips connected. fireworks exploded as gasoline was poured into the fire burning in both of our hearts. everything was blurred except my pure love for her. it was concentrated. real. raw.

the lights of the set faded. and so did the kiss.

"...cut" the director sighed in awe, "that was perfection, you two are perfect. this video is going to be perfect, just pERFECT!" 

sienna giggled and looked at me, her rosy cheeks glowing with pure radiance.

everything was perfect.

sienna.

it was amazing, perfect, the best moment of my life. i am in love with luke hemmings. unconditionally and irrevocably.

we sat drinking iced tea from the canteen on set. luke was telling me bad puns and showing me memes on his phone. he kept giving me pecks on the cheek every 5 minutes and was being so cute. i noticed something out of the corner of my eye. calum. he was gesturing for me to come over. i kow luke wouldnt want me to, but i didnt want to be rude. 

"luke i'll be right back ok? dont wait up, go talk to the director, he's been wanting to talk to you about things for hours." i say quietly. he nods but eyes me suspiciously and gets up to walk away. i sneak out to find calum, hes smiling widely at me and pulls me into a hug. i pull away quickly and awkwardly peel him off of me. he tilts his head in confusion, i gesture over to luke who is still looking, but cant fully see whats happening. calum realises and mouths "ohhhhh"  and pulls me into a place where luke cant see. 

"hey." he smiles.

"hey?" i reply, confused.

"dont sweat it ok? i just wanted to congratulate you on the shoot. cookie bite?" he says, holding out the box, i take one and bite down on it cautiously. 

"honestly though you were amazing!" he gushes. ok he was really milking it now. 

"thank you. it was really stressful but it was very fun to do" i smile, thinking of me and lukes final scene.

ashtons calls calum over and he reluctsntly nods,

"ive gotta go. see you around ok? you've got my number." he says, smirking at me and before i can do anything about it or stop anything...

calum is kissing me on the forehead.

i push him away and gasp as i hear a loud drop onto the floor, i turn to see a spilt iced tea and luke robert hemmings, tears in his ocean eyes, a small breath leaving his mouth slightly open. a tear rolls down his cheek as he stares at calum, then me, then back to calum.

"some friend." he chokes out to calum, before turning and walking away slowly, his shoulders slumping, and before he is out of earshot, i hear a small sob leave his throat.

calum looks frozen and expressionless. he slowly walks to ashton, who shakes his head at him and runs across the set straight to luke. calum walks out of eyeshot.

tears spring to my own eyes and i drop to the floor crying. all i can see is the grey ground and spilt iced tea, along with my own tears. i feel des shake my shoulders and repeatedly ask if im ok.

its not ok.

its not alright.

everything is fucked up now. 

luke will never love me. and it killed me inside.

lmao im sooooooorry for any typos