No Such Thing as Sweet Dreams

Introduction

It has almost been a year since I have seen or heard of (f/n). What has become of her I may never know. I miss her dearly and still haven't stopped searching. I don't know if she is alive or dead. Should I expect the worst? I have started drinking again. So terribly that my boss has only asked me to come into work when he needs me. He took the trauma in to consideration and I still get paid. My wife. My daughter. My best friend. And my lover. All gone to those damn people. I now understood Ruvik's rage his hatred. If things get bad enough I'll need his help. I don't care about the consequences.

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I imprinted that girl with everything. My rage. My hatred. My knowledge. She was perfect. My own little reincarnation. I wonder how long it will be before she tears them and that machine apart. My madness in her little head is a ticking time bomb no one can escape. The boy's mind was the catalyst and his body my escape. Now I wait for the perfect moment. I will tear them apart and take the girl for myself. Now I am in control, and they merely my pawns.

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They have (f/n) here. I always hear the guards talking about her. About how she hasn't awoken that damn machine yet. If we are all lucky she never will. My head still swims. I can't think. I still feel like one of those stupid monsters. The urge to just let go. . .but to let go to what? What am I giving control up of now? She will either be our redeemer or our damnation. Which one? It is impossible to say.

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Everything has always been so dark. Or has it? I can recall light sometimes. And others I can recall warm brown eyes. I won't reawaken this monster. I refuse. Who all would I be condemning to death if I did? How many lives would be altered and torn apart? How many people would go missing? I could never comprehend the destruction. So here I wait. Until I die. Until they release me. Whichever comes first. I will NOT awaken the beast.