Bieber/Masks
For those of you who don't know, I'm a Belieber. I respect him and he's done a lot for me that my own mom hasn't done. Here comes the hate....
I like all kinds of music, from SWS to Tim McGraw. But, I only have one idol though, yeah, Justin Bieber. I have been with him since '09 where it all took off. Before you start thinking "Your gay?", no, I'm not gay. He just makes me feel better, like I'm not so alone.
But, with commitment comes hate. Ive heard it all. "Gay." "Fag." "Ugly." "Fat." "Asshole." "Go Die." "Player." "Freak." "Emo." I've just learned to put in my headphones and ignore but sometimes you hit the edge.
I've cut and I've hospitalized myself before. I'm not telling you this for sympathy, I'm telling you this so you don't feel like your alone. Or, that words hurt more then you think.
You can say the meanest things to me and I won't flinch but sooner or later I'll break down because of it. I usually wear a mask unless I trust you enough. The mask is off in this book. I say what I feel.
He helped me forget for a brief while. I could just listen to him. Nobody will ever understand the connection I have with him.
Just please, don't judge me for my idol. What'd I ever do to you?
