Age Is Just A Number

Therapy

Kay Po
Chapter 17

(A week later)

" I just recently lost my mom.",I spoke those words and they felt bitter.

"How did that make you feel? considering your now going to be a mother now", The therapist spoke.

"It made me sick to my stomach. Especially finding out we're having a little girl",I held my head down looking at my baby bump and then George. We finally had our appointment and it was better than I expected.

"So how did it make you feel when you found about his infidelity?", He waited for my response.

"When he told me he cheated my first thought was what did I do wrong. I didn't understand how could you love someone and hurt them so bad. I felt less of a woman or maybe I wasn't being submissive enough. Growing up I always had a good example of love. So I couldn't understand how someone changed so much. As much as I wanted to hate him I couldn't because I loved him so much.",I felt the tears streaming.

"And what was your first thoughts when he told you?", He finished writing down his notes.

" I wanted to kill George. Go find her and do the same",I could feel my heart ache.

"And why didn't you?",He looked curiously.

"Because she needed me. My baby",I rubbed my stomach.

"But if you felt sick to your stomach why should that matter?", He questioned and it instantly mad me annoyed.

" I can't take anyones life. That's not my place. I'm not god. I couldn't go murder someone in cold blood, When I watched someone do the same to my family", I began to cry again.

"George how do you feel about what she said?",He directed his attention to George and so did I.

"I can understand. I feel terrible man. That's why I had to tell her." He was fidgeting with his fingers, so I knew he was more nervous than he was leading on.

"Do you even know why you did it? Cause you knew what the outcome would be either way she found out.",The therapist asked and he sighed.He held his head down but no words came out.

"Ohhhh, your afraid to love? Loving a strong woman can break you inside. Especially if you can't fully comprehend the love she has for you. So what you do unconsciously is do things to break her, so then you're both broken.",His words made George tear up.

"Your mother must have struggled a lot with her love life?", the therapist added.

He nodded his head," I seen her go from dude to dude trying to find the right one. They wasn't all good either. I seen her get beat and I couldn't understand if she loved herself so much why she allowed it to happen",

The room grew silent and after this session it was hard for me to stay mad at him. It bothered me that a lot of stuff he was saying he never even bothered to tell me. Maybe it was just not the conversation to talk about or he just didn't feel comfortable telling me. Either way I was feeling some type of way, because we sleep next to each other every night.

"You have to learn to let Kay love you and realize your actions affect her as well as your unborn child. The word for you guys until the next visit is CONSIDERATION. Everything you both do take it into consideration ", He cleared his throat. "I'll see you guys next week",I stood up along with George.

We headed out into the parking lot and George couldn't even say anything. Maybe the therapist was right. I decided against saying anything to him until his mood lightened up. I was doing what the therapist said and using the word consideration. So I was taking in consideration when I realized his mood and decided to not put anymore weight on him.

" I don't deserve you", He finally spoke." You been sitting here patiently waiting, even when I was playing games",

I crawled over to the driver side with him. Just snaking my arms around his neck resting my head on his shoulder . He held onto me like he was scared to let me go and even though I was uncomfortable I didn't want to ruin the moment.

George Pov

Words can't explain how bad I messed things up. I'm willing to do whatever it takes and I mean that. That therapist had a nigga all up in his feelings. We just sat in the parking lot holding each other. This the only time I felt like nothing mattered when Kay was in my arms. I knew everything she was going through and I just made it hard.

I wasn't expecting her to stay, because whenever I messed up with someone they always found a way to leave me. I just don't know how to make this up. I feel like sorry not enough to make things right even when she just made it seem like it was. She wasn't who she was before this shit happened. She also wasn't herself when that shit happened with her family. I know how much they meant to her and I was one of the few people she have left. I'm over here stressing her out and she carrying my unborn child. I'm ashamed of myself.

"We have to get to your mom's place", She kissed my cheek before sitting back in her seat.

" I know", I waited until we were both buckled up to pull off.

My mom invited us to her house for dinner. No other guest just us. Especially after all that stuff happened at the restaurant. I don't know if my sister was going to be there but it didn't matter to me. I wasn't going to hold it against her, because I knew she was busy all the time. She had this big business in New Jersey so we usually saw her on the holidays or special occasions. I wanted her to meet Kay though, because I knew they would get along.

The car ride was silent only, because a few minutes into me and Kay's conversation she had fell asleep. I knew she was getting further along in her pregnancy so she was tired all the time or hungry. I didn't mind though I needed sometime to process what the therapist said. It was hard to take in, because I knew he was right. After a while we pulled up to my mama's place.

"Kay baby we here", I tapped her waking her up.

She looked around and realized we were here and started stretching.

"Good cause I'm hungry", She rubbed her stomach causing me to laugh.

I got out the car going to her side to open her door. I usually don't do this, but I was trying to be better for her. Her face was surprised when she saw me open the door. I always acted so hard around her and I was starting to realize that I didn't have to. I grabbed her hand and we walked up to my mama's porch and I ranged her doorbell.

"This is nice", She looked around.

The door opened and my mama's face lit up when she saw Kay's stomach causing her to cry. I couldn't help but smile as they hugged rocking back and forth.

"Oh so I don't get no love?", I smacked my lips.

"Boy hush up", She waved me off grabbing Kay's hand damn near dragging her in the house." I gotta feed my daughter and my granddaughter."

I followed them in the house taking a seat in the living room. I was willing to I wanted them to have time to just kick it. With that being said effort is what counts.

I don't know guys I'm losing faith in these books! It started off great but now I think I'm deleting them. I hope you guys enjoyed this chapter.

Sincerely,
Sherell❤