I do not know what I was thinking
leaving my child behind
Now I suffer the curse
and now I'm blind,
with all this anger, guilt and sadness,
It comes to haunt me forever
I can not wait for the cliff at the end of the river
is this I'm looking for revenge,
or find someone to avenge me
trapped in my own paradox
I want to put free
Maybe I should pursue and find
before they will try to stop
It will not be long before I will become a puppet
it's been so long
since the last time I saw my son
He lost to this monster:
the man behind the slaughter
since you left,been gone
I've been singing this stupid song
so I could ponder
the sanity of your mother
I wish I lived in the present
with the gift of my past mistakes
but the future keeps luring in
like a pack of snakes
your sweet little eyes,
your little smile
is alli remember
those fuzzy memories mess with my temper
justification is killing me
but killing isn't justified
what happened to my son?
i'm terrified!
it lingers in my mind
and the thought keeps on getting bigger
i'm sorry my sweet baby
i wish i've been there
its been so long
since the last time I saw my son
He lost to this monster:
the man behind the slaughter
since you left,been gone
I've been singing this stupid song
so I could ponder
the sanity of your mother
