Violet Hill (Buckin)

Is This Real? ( Chapter 2)

sorry it took me so long to do more,

I've had school and soccer and I've been super busy, I'll try to upload faster next time(:

NOTE: GWYNETH AND CHRIS ARENT MARRIED IN THIS STORY SO. NETHER IS JONNY AND THEY HAVE NO KIDS.

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Jonny's POV

It's been a few days since I realized I was in love with Chris. My emotions have been confused like crazy. Is this real?

Maybe I just need a week or so to shake it off, or maybe find a girl. But I've secretly felt this way for so long.

I just assumed it was just a strong friendship.

But when those blue eyes met mine, I just knew.

Nothing could ever come of this though. Chris could NEVER feel this way about me... could he?

Even if he did ever maybe kinda sorta feel that way, we couldn't put the band at risk. Or our friendship.

I haven't really seen him since that day, so I'm nervous for when I see him. He normally kisses me on the cheek, or puts his arm around me, and plays around. Like friends. But to me it means so much more.

I will feel different. I'm actually really scared, but at the same time, I just always want to be with him.

LATER THAT NIGHT

It's all around a dramatic night. It's warm but a little windy, the trees are blowing, I'm listening to slow music. I've been down since I found out my little secret.

I know he will never love me back.

*The phone rings*

"Hello it's Jonny" I say.

"Jonny, it's Chris. I'm feeling sad and I just need to be with you. I don't know why but it's not my night and I need to occupy my mind. Can you meet me at the park?"

Wow it's weird how we are both down tonight. But I'm glad he called because I need him too.

"Yes Chris, of course. I'll be there soon."

"Thanks Jon."

We hang up.

When Chris is upset I just want to make him happy. I just need to see that smile. Hear that laugh. I would do anything for him. I feel sorta like a protecter. It sounds cliché, but I guess that's love.

I grab my green hat, a jacket, and head out the door.

As I walked the London streets, I got butterflies. I'm nervous out of my mind, but yet that humble feeling is there in my heart. I look around at the lights, and trees, and people.

I meet Chris at the park by the lake.

When I see him he is sitting on a bench, he head in his hands. I hate seeing him this distraught. I could cry.

"Chris?"

I whisper as I sit next to him on the bench.

He looks up at me; his wide blue eyes looking for something in mine.

" Jonny... the sadness. It's coming back. I don't know why but I hate it.

I lie awake at night, feeling like I am useless. Like nobody needs me... nobody wants me."

"Chris. Listen to me. You are not useless. I don't know what I would do without you.

Coldplay wouldn't be Coldplay if it weren't for you. I wouldn't even be me. I wish you wouldn't feel that way. More than anything. I need you more than you know Chris. Way more.."

I meant it.

Of course he wouldn't know that I really was in love with him and only want him to be happy. He wouldn't know that I need him so bad.

Chris's face lightened up a little. I could see some relief on his face, as he looked around at the water and dark trees.

He gazed at the moon. It was a beautiful full, bright, moon.

"Jon, that means so much to me. You seem to be the only cure for my sadness. You are always there for me, when I get frustrated about a song at 3:00am, when Guy and Will hate my music, when I stub my toe...

You always make me feel better and I applaud you for staying by my side..." he smiled weakly.

That smile. Those eyes. Really Jonny? Why am I doing this to myself. I tried to look away but I really couldn't.

I smiled back.

" I love you Jonnypuff. Love me back?" He giggled and kissed me on the cheek, with that childlike grin.

" Chris, you know I love you"

In that moment, I felt my thoughts flying right to him, saying:

" I really love you Chris. I really do."

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That was kinda short and boring, but next chapter I wanna add some excitement(:

I just love cute Buckin moments , like... before they confess their love.