Violet Hill (Buckin)

You Let Me Know (Chapter 4)

IM SO SORRY I HAVENT UPDATED IN LIKE EVER. you probably forgot about this fic anyways

well here you go:

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Jonny's POV:

I honestly don't know why I'm doing this.

It's killing me and I have to tell him. Chris

deserves to know that his bestfriend is in love

with him. Even if it means he will hate me by the end.

When we were talking, inside I was crying. I just

couldn't take it. I had to leave. Chris seemed

so...confused-lost.

I ran and left a note on his door. I'm meeting him

at the park in a few minutes. He has no idea

what's going to happen.

I feel bad for him. He's going to come to the

park, thinking he has a best buddy forever. He will

leave later, probably grossed out and hating me.

What about the band?

What will Guy and Will think?

If only Chris had some sort of, tiny, maybe-feelings for me...

It's 6:50. I should go. I grab my jacket and walk

out the door. I walk slow. I feel my hands trembling. The cold autumn weather makes it worse. The streets are dark, yet people still walk and laugh, smile and live.

I wish..

I remember what life was like before I realized I loved Chris.

How happy we always were. Like brothers. No worries.

Now I wonder if I should tell him....

I have to. I can't keep doing this.

Shit. There he is, his beautiful blue eyes shining from the streetlights.

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Chris's POV:

Okay. There he is. I'm nervous. Why did he leave so suddenly earlier? Is he mad at me?

So many questions.

He walks up slowly... he's nervous too. I can tell.

Jonny's shoulders shrug a little when he's feeling

nervous.

I've been thinking about my feelings for him. I'm

positive I love him. Before I wasn't so open with

it. But now, I can't deny. His bright green eyes

glowing in the streetlights.

"Hey Jon.." I say with a forced smile.

"Hi Chris how are you?" He replies.

Um why is he acting like nothing happened earlier...?

"I'm fine, what's wrong Jonny? You've been acting

weird lately, and you just left earlier.

I'm worried about you Jon. I know what it feels like to be lost. I saw that look in your eyes earlier and my heart broke for you. I care about you so much, you don't even know Jonny..."

No holding back now. I just wish I could tell him how much I love him right now. He would never recover from that. He would hate me.

It sucks.

Right now I just want to hug him. And hold him. Tell him how much I love him.

"Chris I need to tell you something..."

My stomach turns. Those words scare me.

"What is it Jon? Are you sick? Are you okay?

Are you depressed?

Oh don't tell me you self harm! Jonny please! Are you moving aw-"

" Chris I love you..."

Wait...

"Yes Jonny I love you too but really wh-"

"No, Chris. I love you."

I feel my eyes start to tear up.

"Chris I know you probably hate me now, but I had to tell you.

It's been bottled up, inside my heart for a while.

I couldn't take it and I might as well just go now. I'm so sorr-"

I interrupt him by putting my arms around his waist, looking into those eyes, and kissing him.

I've never felt this way before. It's like the happiest, feeling. Like fireworks exploded around us.

Inside us.

When we break apart his eyes just search mine for an explanation.

"Jonny I...."

I'm still shocked.

Wait so we both love each other?

Woah.

"Chris do you... feel the same?"

Tears start streaming down my face.

I look away.

"Fuck. I knew you would hate me. You kissed me out of guilt didn't you? I love you Chris and I don't know if I could ever stop. I guess I had a sliver of hope that you felt the same way. I have no bloody idea why..."

Jonny starts to walk away.

He turns back around once, just enough for me to see the single tear roll down his face.

I want to chase him. To yell for him.

But my legs don't move.

No words come out of my mouth.

I just stand there, broken.

When I sang " if you love me...wont you let me know..?"

I didn't know he actually would.

I didn't know he loved me.

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Kay guys it's once again short, but Im half falling asleep, and I just had to get these thoughts out in the story.

If you are still reading this, THANK YOU<3

Hope you like it..

Next chapter will have more powpow yey:)