sad face // phan

the inexplicable worry

trigger warnings! : the usual but please be careful! i'm talking about important things in this chapter!!!

also i will be posting this on my other book thunder in a few minutes !! sorry if u get two notifications !

you guys commenting on my stories have brought me to a point where i can not show my love anymore. you are all so cute and lovely and amazing!! it sucks knowing that u guys may not know that i care but i definitely do! it also sucks knowing that u guys want to approach me but can't bc you're very shy or think that i won't answer? just say hi and we can be even closer as friends and u can just drop a hi in my inbox ;-) or we could all just make a kik chat together!! how does that sound? 

***trigger warning starting***

but there is an inexplicable worry that is so heavy on me. and it's that many of you are going through the same problems i am. and it just

i consider ALL OF YOU my friends and i care about you all so much and the fact that a lot of you guys want to die or hurt yourself and have  hurt yourself and i just

one of my readers had actually killed themselves last sunday, and it still tears me apart knowing that i could have triggered them with my books, as all of them have very mature topics. 

i want all of you, all of you, to promise to me in the comments to at least try to not hurt yourself. please please please try to stop harming your beautiful skin, please at least try to love ur body, pick up the fork, open up a little, i am here for you! i am totally here for you! hopefully everyone here is here for you! i love u, a lot! please please don't do this to yourself!!! u deserve so much better! 

if anyone needs help u can drop a message in my inbox! i will always answer!

please stay safe, and stay alive

-eden xx